2 years ago I was in this same spot but after processing my first one i quickly realized I will never go back to grocery store meat, we have since raised pigs and processed, will not do that again untill we have the proper equipment....I now raise 100 meat birds every year and sell about 75 of those processed, many returning customers tell me it is the best chicken they ever had.....You can do this, I still have to remind myself that they are livestock first and pets second...