True. I do most of that too... I even caught a 1 eyed toad at work and took him outside and put him in the grass at the cow pasture near the parking lot.
I just don't think I could actually kill them. I watched one of the videos on here of a fairly large operation where one guy killed them and let them bleed out as he went to another one, as he got to full cones he pulled them out and someone else put them in the scalder and plucker and on they went, I think I could do any of the further down the line jobs, just not the actual killing....
I had a difficult start killing the chickens, it was actually emotionally traumatic for me, I still cringe when I think about it. I didn't think after the hatchet fiasco I would ever attempt again. But I continued reading the meat thread and continued watching the videos, and decided to try w/ a pellet gun instead of so hands on, it worked for me, I am able to do it now w/o to much trouble, even w/o the wine. (when I first was killing w/ the pellet gun I would have a little wine as I worked to make it easier)