I am sorry about all the trouble you are going through. I totally understand. My hubby came in this morning and told me we are out of propane, we already had no extra money this week for food or gas, and now the chickens need feed...........I can't remember a time when we weren't struggling... My husband also hurt his back on the job, as an electrician, like 3 years ago and had to give up a potential $25 and hour for $12 and it took him 2 years to find that. So I know what your feeling.....hang in there and hope for the best, I've been just trying to take it a day at a time......