Deerman, It never goes away. I lost my baby girl 27 years ago August 10. I always get a little weird around that date. Time heals the wound, but it never goes away. You just learn to live with it. My heart goes out to you, I am truly sorry for your loss. It's not God's will, as good intending people say, trying to be a comfort. God didn't kill my baby girl, nor did he kill your son. God greives with you and he is there to comfort you in the dark times of your life. Your son will always be with you. He is a part of you and you are a part of him. Life, even with all it's sorrows, is still good. Be kind to some one every day and when you do, think of your son and what he would do. It will gladden your heart.
May God bless you.