Re-living a Nightmare

[cafarmgirl]

Plan on it being a crummy day each year and LET yourself have that day to let it all out. Do whatever you need to do that day to get thru. My day was Aug. 30. It's been 21 years. It wasn't my child, it was my brother and I'll leave it at that but I found out long ago that day will live with me forever and it's my day to feel crummy because it all comes back. I think you know by now it doesn't get easier but you just find a place to keep it and a way to cope as best you can. Best wishes.

 

[michelle1017]

 

[phaethona]

losing one of my children is by far my very biggest fear, so much so that I almost didn't want to have children at all. I truly believe that I would not have the strength to go on. and that tells me that you are an incredibly strong person, whether it feels like it to you right now or not. and I agree with one of the other posters, it's great that you let it out amongst friends. even those of us complete strangers care, and our hearts go out to you.

get to feeling better soon ok?

 

[HeatherLynn]

I cannot imagine what your going through but I'm glad when I see how much comfort and understanding you can get here. You should not have to feel alone when your grieving. You might choose to be but its great that there is a family here to comfort you.

I don't think the day will ever get easier. My grandmother died when my mother was 16. My mother is in her 70's and we all know when the day is approaching because her mood totally changes. Usually she just goes off in the woods on her own on the actual day.

 

[b.hromada]

 

[Iowa Roo Mom]

 

[TerriLaChicks]

 

[MysticScorpio82]

I just don't have the words to say DeerMan, I wish I did. I wish I could say something to help the pain...

 

[Lunachick]

awww deerman,

.............and on top of all the other things you have to deal with.

My thoughts are with you.

 

[Kyhen]

So sorry.