really need to air some feelings...

You can never go back. Time seems to weed out the bad memories. I tried it once. She was still a true expletive for female dog, and she told me that I was still a "expletive for illegitimate child." It just wan't meant to be. His lack of involvement with his child is the true measure of the man.
 
I don't think you are in love with him. I think you are in love with the idea of your first great love. You remember the giddy romance, the first time feelings, and the youth. Those are what you are longing for; not the man. I think you have an idea of who he was and you were and you see it through the rose colored glasses of the past. You've never lived with him, gone through the ups and downs and changes that life brings. Living with someone for years gives you a much different view of love and romance than first love brings. You don't really know this man, you've never seen him in the morning after dealing with a sick kid or sat with him and coffee on a quiet weekend morning. You have the feeling of an old married reaching back for the feelings of the past. They aren't real.
 
Most all of us have fond memories of a time gone by. I had some good times with my ex-wife and have two great boys who live with me as a partial reminder of those times. There were a lot of firsts that we shared and they were a lot of fun but that was then and this is now. I have a very wonderful wife now and I would not trade her to have any of those times back. They are memories best left as memories. I am sensitive to my wifes feelings so I am cautious when talking about the past.

Keep your memories as memories, you can never go back!
 

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