where Shirley MacLaine goes into the nursery to check on her baby? She pinches her arm and makes her cry to make sure she is still alive. Well, my baby is celebrating his sixth birthday in a couple of weeks and I've been feeling a bit nostalgic. I remember the first time he slept for more than a couple of hours at night. I woke up in a panic, rushed to his crib, heart pounding. Of course, he was sleeping peacefully, swaddled in his receiving blankets. I can still feel that panic today. Maybe it's because we tried for 16 years before he came along, maybe it's because I'm what the ob/gyns considered an "aged mother" (just loved hearing that term when I was just 39!!) and I am, admittedly, a bit overprotective, but it just floors me when mothers say "oh joy, my baby is sleeping through the night!". They don't express any anxiety over the first time it happened. Maybe they do feel it and don't express it. Does this "first time sleeping through the night panic syndrome" really exist? Or is it just me being my normal psychotic self? Of course, nowadays, he snores so loudly, I don't even have to physically look at him to know he's breathing. All I have to do is mute the TV and listen to that lovely, melodic nasal music!