I am really struggling with the fact that Cinnamon is struggling and hasn't gotten better.
The vet has fallen in love with Cinnamon, too, and my repeating bills have been significantly dropping in amount. The first operation (emergency visit fee, exam, anesthesia, operation, meds, etc) was nearly $400. The last (same) operation was billed as "anethesia" and "exotic exam" for less than $100. Still, it's been extremely expensive.
On the one hand, I don't want to give up if she has a chance. I keep hoping she will get better.
On the other hand, regardless of the money, the repeated operations (which allow her to breathe) cause discomfort. She doesn't like the vet visits, struggles to breathe till her swelling goes down, has a few good days (a week or two), then struggles to breathe because her breathing passage is clogged by Aspergillosis/Aspergilloma. Then the vet does an operation to open up her breathing, and the cycle starts again.
I hesitated with the last operation, but the vet thought we should try again. Now she's at home recovering. But I'm not sure I should keep going. Maybe she can enjoy her last days when she gets over this operation, and when her breathing is labored again, it will be time to let her go. But it is so hard to make the decision.