I didn't call anyone heartless, but the focus became breeding advice which wasnt why I created the post. I appreciate pointers but if the responses are missing the objective of my post and focusing on aspects that distract and deture others the main objective then I shouldn't be scolded by attempting to redirect the conversation. My intentions were not to dismiss or discredit anyone, it was simply to redirect, as I am still seeking advice. Yesterday I picked him up and he had a bad episode that totally broke my heart. It seems to happen if I catch him off gaurd vs. if he knows im trying to pick him up. His head just kept spinning back then around in circles as he started gasping for air, closing his eyes, and trying to get out of my hands. He eventually calmed down and stopped. He kept his eyes closed, I couldnt tell if he felt relaxed and comforted because I was petting him or why he wouldnt open his eyes. I apply vitamin e oil about 2x a week to his bald spot. He doesnt like the oil but feels relaxed that he's getting some TLC. When I feel his bald spot, it may feel slightly raised? Its hard to tell, nothing was obvious. Are there parasites or vitamin deficiencies that could cause this?