I chose this man for a reason.

Instead of self injury, I now go for tattoos. Same result (pain and a scar, and a vast amount of emotional relief), but with the added bonus of having something meaningful permanently embedded into my skin. People can see what matters to me by what I get tattooed. And even though I would not go out and get the same tattoos again if I had to start over, I do not end up regretting them. They are my story. And one day I will be old and broken and I will be able to look at them all and remember everything that once had meaning to me (unless I get dementia, then I can just look at the pretty pictures).