I have one permanent pullet, Carmen, and several younger, and even more still in egg-stage. Most are fosters that I am hatching out for my brother-in-laws farm. I decided to keep some of these chickens
because the city made me give my three hens away a few years ago. It is illegal to keep chickens in my suburb, however it is perfectly legal to crank up your stereo, work on a hot-rod, own barking dogs, and make as much noise as you want- until 10 p.m. (Probably later, actually.)
I will skip my childhood here and fast forward to adult.
I am 39 years old and on my second life. My first life was married to a very abusive drug-addicted man who suppressed my soul, my hopes, my self-worth, etc. however because of him I have three beautiful healthy children. And because of them, I would go through every thing all over again, if that was the only way for me to be blessed with them. (DacJohns, I know that is a run-on sentence however I cannot seem to fix it.
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When I turned 30, I realized that I would have to somehow change my life if I ever expected my children to do better than I had. And I knew deep in my heart that I would probably not survive to see them grow up if I didn't change something. So with the kindness of strangers and strength from my God, I broke free-and filed for divorce. I lost everything material, but I kept my kids, my dog, my life, and found my sanity.
Somehow, I managed to keep food in my childrens bellies. I wouldn't go to a shelter because they refused to realize that my dog was family. They wouldn't let me bring her, and I refused to lose her. She had been my salvation for almost a decade and was my rock. She knew everything, and she loved me anyhow. Too many times she was all I had to hold on to, to kiss away my tears, and I had spent countless hours crying into her fur- where the children couldnt hear me. To give her up was not an option. The women's shelter refused to see this. I also learned then that welfare wouldn't really help you. I had a worker tell me if my situation was
really as bad as I described, perhaps my children would be better off away from me for awhile- and I walked out. And never looked back at them, either.
At that point of rock bottom, I met my second husband(and two wonderful stepdaughters). Somehow the man saw behind the pain in my eyes, and the pitifulness of my situation, and saw ME. Who I was inside. He helped me pick myself up, and gave my children and I a place to live. (And my dog). It took a while for me to stop apologizing for everything, stop having panic attacks, and gain my self esteem. However, I went back to school and became a licensed veterinary technician- and certified in wildlife rehab. I still have baggage, for sure- but I am a completely different person now than I was a decade ago.
From there came all my animals. Each one is part of what I do, and who I am. I hate that I am not on a farm- as I would own more. I am fortunate in that my brother-in-law has a farm. He raises the beef and pork that feeds my family. I could never slaughter, however I do know where food comes from. I also know that my beef in my freezer tastes much better than that which is at the store. I also know that any chickens that I give him may end up in his freezer. I like to pretend they don't, however.
My husband is a hunter. I do wildlife rehab. We joke that we cancel each other out. He doesn't share hunting details with me, except when the animal wins. And I, in turn, do not preach anti-hunting sermons on him. He is a better, more careful, shot now than he was when he met me. I knew he was a hunter when I met him, and I made sure I could accept that before our relationship continued.
That is the readers digest version of me, myself, and I.