Weeg
Enabler
I’m so sorry for your loss, that is so heartbreaking.I wanted to follow up as promised sorry I've been working a lot.. It’s Marek’s.Which leads me to my next question I would love opinions from anyone who could take a couple mins to respond.Is it ok to get new chicks if vaccinated? Im so worried I don’t want another animal to suffer. Im just so depressed losing like more than half of my flock. Im really struggling with the decision. What would you do? Would you do some heavy cleaning(again) of coops and brooders(obviously cant do much about land) and vaccinate day of hatch chicks? Or should I not?Hope to hear back from someone soon. I was waiting to place order for vaccine. Uploaded pic of email from Cornell for Necropsy results.

I want to say that vaccinated birds can be added, but I'm not entirely sure.
I have heard that some people with Mareks in their flock ended up culling, to prevent suffering, treated the entire area and let it sit, then got ducks instead. Ducks can't get Mareks disease, so are a safe option when going back into chickens. Maybe something you would like to consider.
Again, I'm so sorry. that is just awful. I've lost many birds, and pets this year unfortunately, and it never gets easier. I know for myself, for some reason I thought I would "get better" at loss. You never "get better" at it. It never gets easier to do, but from my own experience, I can promise that it does get better. Sometimes it feels like it will never get better, like you will be stuck in this trench of sadness forever. Sometimes it even feels like you should be stuck in. You don't deserve to, and you will get out of it. It does get better, day by day, minuet by minuet. Its just so hard.
Sometimes I did when I was dealing with lost this past year, if I felt like I was going to cry, and I didn't want to, I would start naming all the different types of chocolate. Its random, but I helped, sometimes it made me laugh.

If you need a vent, or to type, I'm here. I've been though it, so I'm happy to help however I can.