WARNING: THIS WILL BE VERY FREAKING LONG!
Note: Nothing I say here is meant to insult anyone or to question. I am simply needing a little guidance and help understanding. This is a new frustration to me and I am unused to being around someone who repeatedly preaches things that differ vastly from my own beliefs whilst I am in earshot.
Well, I've bought about as many chicks as I can handle this year. Maybe I will hatch some later this year, but I'm done!
Today was one heck of a day! I found out that my boss finds me too "valuable" compared to his old employees. Because I can do both graphic and web design (and because I am learning loads of things pretty quickly), he is wanting to reach me to be a better salesman. That was incredibly flattering.
Then I had a strange "Woah, is this love?" moment. Most of you probably don't realize that I'm a woman who is used to living a solitary life. Family and the occasional friend is all I need. Well, that sort of lifestyle is not at all conducive to romance.
So when I finally see someone I feel incredibly attracted to (I'm really picky and selective and I get in trouble with fat-shamers because they expect a heavy girl like me to settle for any old guy), I get that weird movie moment. It was so miraculous, especially when the guy gave me a look and said, "Woah, I-what's your name? You look so familiar."
He proceeded to tell me that he was an IT specialist and was looking for a job. It looks like he may be hired because, wouldn't you know it, one of the computers had messed up right before he came in. He diagnosed the problem for free an left. Later, when my boss's computer guy came by, he said it was the same thing. My boss said the guy was wrong, but he told us it could be one if two things (and he was right!).
Kismet, anyone? Okay, maybe it's wishful thinking. I'm just feeling a bit...lonely, I suppose. I would love to go on a date before I die, you know?
Anyhow, I'm tired, but pleased. There is much for me to do this week. Mom gets paid tomorrow and because I helped out with some expenses, she's buying me a hearty, beefy meal tomorrow! I am craving meat so badly lately. I think I'm lacking in protein or something.
Oh yeah, can someone enlighten me? My boss is a "Christian man". I get it. The guy is religious, he has strong faith and he is incredibly "blessed". I appreciate it when people have faith. I'm not big on coming out and saying that God gives us good fortune because not every devout man will be rich monetarily or will have an easy life. I believe that the most resilient people will have good fortune but in ways vastly different from people who can't handle struggle. God has a magnificent way of knowing who can handle stress and who can't.
That being said, I also acknowledge that science does have a place in this world. Psychology and the understanding of our own minds is important because it gives us mere mortals a tiny idea of what we are capable of.
Well, the boss believes psychology is a load of horse dung. He claims that children can't be reasoned with and are "born sinners" with no reasoning capability. He belittles parents who don't want to spank their children and uses his well-disciplined children as examples of why he is right.
Well, I was spanked when I was younger but before I ever got that sort of punishment, I behaved because Mom told me to. I would sit in church for that hour long mass and would listen (and occasionally sleep) until it was time to go (no crying, a little fidgeting, and an ear open whenever Mom would tell me to listen to a specific portion of the priest' speech).
The truth is, children understand loads if things. I understood early on the dynamic in my house. I understood that I would often need to tell my Mom things that I couldn't tell my Dad. I knew my value early in and was dealt a blow when told to shut up by a teacher. It took years to relearn how to speak my mind because a single person told me to silence my heart when I was 8.
I was spanked twice by my father. I love him but it didn't change anything. My boss says that pain teaches children. In my opinion, respect and discipline is not so black and white. I learned to behave because my parents often explained to me why being quiet in one place was important while being loud in another was fine. I didn't get it smacked into me.
I know that everyone has different ways of raising kids. I haven't raised any children but I have a long memory of my own childhood and my siblings. So, do I have a reason to be upset? Am I just a little too progressive?