I don't read for that reason, Deb. I *have* to finish a book when I pick it up. I finish one in 2 days, tops. Nothing gets done if I have a book.
I read a lot of articles online instead.. always learning
It does give me some anxiety, the to-do list in my head is so great it's paralyzing, not knowing where to even start. And everything costs money
I'm anti-spending to the max.
I make only one pie: the best sweet potato pie EVER. None of that crap from a can, no ma'am... fresh sweet potatoes. I can swap out the sweet potatoes for pumpkin/squash and get a similarly good pie. I buy frozen pie crust
I don't like regular sweet potato/pumpkin pie.. only my own
I don't like sweet potatoes and squash all that much anyway.. something cloying about it, I don't know. I can usually eat anything 'because it's good for me', but sweet potatoes/squash require some serious gagging and choking down. I need a LOT of seasoning to eat the stuff.
Having a productive day today.. washed every bit of laundry in the house. Got mount wash-more on my bed now. Fun times. Been feeling a bit down the past couple of days.. post partum bla bla no doubt.
My son has been driving me batty, getting into EVERYTHING. I found toys in the washer, sticks in the air conditioner, food all over the house (he's not eating very well, rather shredding his sandwich and tossing it all over). He's been drawing on furniture with crayons and pencils (not a clue where he finds all this stuff). He fell off the porch the other day (tumbled down the steps) as I was putting his sister in the car. He bruised his cheek and eyebrow
This morning he fell off who knows what, I was feeding the baby and he starts screaming. His chin was red. He must've falled off my bed or desk or chair or *something*. He's tried running off with my phone, my pump... everything. He bit me yesterday on my arm, as I was putting his clothes on. He cried when his daddy yelled, not sure if he was scared or upset that he hurt me. He's going through the toddler rollercoaster of emotions right now.
We had an appointment on Wednesday, an hour drive from where we live in the 'big city'. Speech evaluation. This girl made me MAD. Halfway through she gets called outside, she comes back and she says "Oh, we have a scheduling conflict, we'll just finish some other time". Excuse me? We drive an hour to get there.. I have to drug up my son to do so (he gets carsick, anything past a 15 minute drive). On top of that she kept pushing about more speech therapy, which would mean I have to make that drive once a week. I tried to explain WHY that wouldn't work. She just made me feel like the world's worst mom for not moving heaven and earth to come to their center. By then my son is having a meltdown, because the dramamine makes him sleepy.
Yes... I will drug up my son on a weekly basis, so he can semi-attend speech therapy, where he will not cooperate because he's drowsy from the medication I gave him to get here. Oh, and I will bring my newborn too, who will need my attention. And while we're at it, I will bring my 6 year old too.. since it's summer vacation. Just no. Why do people without kids always seem to think parents make up excuses? I've been a babysitter at a young age. I've been a teacher. I've supervised kids in various settings. Being a parent is NOTHING like those things. Yes, I want my son to get all the care he needs, but there are limits as to what HE can handle. Driving an hour, paying attention for an hour and a half, then driving back an hour is NOT within the range of what he can handle. I try to explain we are pursuing a possible autism diagnosis, but in one ear, out the other. He's not like other kids. We get 45 minutes of special instruction in our home. It's basically play therapy. He's exhausted by the end of that. Why would he be able to handle 1 1/2 hours of therapy AFTER being drugged up and driving an hour? Just no.
But, being all weepy, that appointment sent me straight to "I'm the worst mother in the world" land (in my mind). Grmblgrmbgrl.... And then he fell on his head the next day. Yup.... not winning any prizes here.