And sometimes a person isn't supposed to have anyone at all. I really feel like that is the case with me now in my life. I had a husband once and I had a few relationships but now I can't even wrap my mind around co-existing with a man any longer. I just feel like that's not something meant for me any longer and I'm pretty content with that thought. Back when life was tough and raising three boys by myself was so hard, I could have used help and a companion, but now I just don't need one anymore.
The thought just never crosses my mind anymore, thank the good Lord! It used to cross it far too often and I worried all the time because I was lonely and felt like life was not complete unless you had someone to love you...then I realized I had Someone all along and He loves me better than anyone ever could or has. Now I just don't need that other kind of love and that's a relief for me.
I think my expectations are too high! And I've been single for now on 11 yrs and I just done think I can do it again. At 51 I'm pretty comfortable in my singleness. If I can't fix something I can always find someone who needs to make a little extra $. Or it just doesn't get done.
The men I've had the pleasure of knowing are either already married, gay, or just want someone to take care of them. This really isn't what I had envisioned when I was a teenager with stars in my eyes, but it's the path God has put me on. Besides I've got an 8 yr old I've raised since she was a baby and most men my age aren't willing to take that on.