Hi checkin in.... any one made that Apple Pie moonshine yet.... HI new people...dont read its depressing.... sigh.![]()
its been a heck of a chronological year...
Last summer I had to put my beloved Rosie dog down she was 17 and failing. All my chickens were killed by coyotes because the well died and I had to let em out to get water.... long story that.... The goats made their own gates on their enclosure and have been thriving on eating what is out in the Chaparal I finally got a lead on some fencing that is goat proof and I can afford it. Things were looking up.
Today I was cleaning up my corner where my computer desk is.... I reached out to pick up a bit of paper from my computer chair and it flipped over Sending me into a water jug on the floor which exploded and water shot out and drenched my sons school books. for thos who dont know me I am close to 400 lbs and if I have to walk far I use a rolling walker. Now I can get up off the floor still thank god.... But it takes a moment to get coordinated and I have to turn over to get on my hands and knees. I was pondering that when the phone rang.
It was my neighbor Tom who caretakes my animals for me. He feeds the horse and goats and I feed his dogs cats and chickens Um er provide food for them. ITs a win win for us because I need to be here with Grandma. He called to tell me Coyotes got in with my goats and killed at least one.... He couldnt find the other two ... I only hope they ran far and high up in the rocks... He only found my dead one because of the Vultures.... and Crows... Then he told me he needed Catfood and chicken food.... He will bury my Goat tomorrow.
Sigh.... I got back up my cleaning spree way over now. All enthusiasm is gone.... I must deserve this.... I have become one of those people that drag negative energy around them. I only have my horse now... Of course I have my family.... I am grieving.... for failing my critters... and for not being able to be there for them.
deb
Aw Deb, we love you. All of us are getting older and I definitely can't get around as good as I used to. Grieve all you need to. We all do. Try to get some rest Honey.
