Bee is having computer problems. Also she is getting ready for a BIG family get-together.Wondering where Bee is.......
Really wish life would quit pulling lifes rug out from under me. If I was a drinker a keg of moonshine would be needed about now. The young man whose been helping me find a house called earlier and asked about a deposit. I told him I would need to call my hubby and would call him back. Well hubby now informs me WE DONT HAVE MONEY I MISUNDERSTOOD HIM! Seems the money he was going to BORROW (home equity line) from our house in usa that we have paid on now 23 yrs. I told him no way in hell was I going to borrow on the house and if something happened to us leave my kids with nothing. Soooooo, im beyond ****** off, angry at the world and need to wallow in self pity for a bit here.
Told the young man to call the woman and tell her im sorry. Guess I need to go visit my sons grave tomorrow. Remind myself that this is only worldly matters. Til then I got to now figure out how to build a bigger hen house on the roof cause im not going anywhere anytime soon.
Got to quit hoping. ..then remind myself someones got it worse off than me.

Lisa
