It isn't that emotional for me, unless as you say, it's a pet. These turkeys aren't pets, they're food. It's more 1) my personal phobia of dead things, 2) the wasted time and resources gone into the bird, and 3) not knowing what happened so I can't effectively prevent a repeat.
I have one other issue I keep forgetting to ask about. I have this one silkie. She's been acting totally fine, but her laying has gone all weird. She lays like 1 egg every few weeks, and it's always super thin in spots and kind of flattened. Every time I get near her I pick her up and check her out an palpate around her vent, and I don't think I feel anything out of sorts (but honestly, I don't know exactly what I'm feeling for...), and she's eating and acting normal. But I'm worried because she came from the same breeder as my other hen that just dropped dead out of nowhere last month. I feed her fermented GMO-free layer and she has free choice oyster shell AND my chickens get most of the egg shells from all the eggs we use. Anything else I should do/watch for?
And I can hear you all saying "cull! cull!" In this case and only this case, I can't. She is the one and only chicken that my kids consider a pet. I will cull her if she is sick with something communicable, or if she is suffering, but not otherwise (besides, I'm not worried about her polluting my gene pool, because it's obvious which eggs are hers...).