Well, nobody asked me if I wanted to live with only 1 kidney from 5yrs old, or have 2 heart attacks, a disabled leg, and the lungs of a 113yr old at 59 either, but it is what it is and wishing, wanting, or dreaming never changes nothing....so, we all just keep on going as best we can until ya can't no more....I'd rather go out digging a post hole than lying in a bed waiting for some minimum wage worker deciding to bathe, feed, or give me meds....I refuse to go to the hospital again and will just ride the wave all the way to shore....