Also idk if I mentioned but I've been really wanting goats again lately and researching again, maybe someone saw my posts about fencing here and on BYH, think they'd be good as pwts and brush clearers. Was really into the idea. Well... now I'm somewhat rethinking goats. I really really REALLY want them but I also want to move to Pittsburgh eventually and/or enroll in dog training school so idk. Granted, goats aren't that expensive to maintain, just hay and minerals, and we have lots of free brush, but the initial cost is slightly high since I wanna save, like the shelter, fencing, goats themselves, etc. And plus babies need grain for a while. So idk. I wanna save at least 6 month's rent and most places are like $1000 or $1200, some are $800 or if I moved to like Erie instead of Pittsburgh some are like $400 but I don't really wanna love there. But anyway, I'm just assuming it's $1000. I don't really have a specific goal but I wanna save between $5000 and $10,000. The dog training thing is $5000. So I'm thinking I should try to save up for that first because I really do wanna become a trainer and also I can train and walk dogs in Pittsburgh in case I can't find a real job right away. And in the meantime I am going to read all the training books I have and finally do the online training classes/video lectures I bought forever ago (like January/February) on Udemy. I have a lot of them cause they went on sale. Lots of good info in them and top trainers. I wanna prove I can make myself read and watch/complete stuff first because I am not at all a big reader and haven't finished a book in a while and am also a big procrastinator with assignments and school and stuff so before I shell out the money for the dog school, I want to prove to myself I can be disciplined enough to go through the program cause otherwise it's a waste of money. And besides, I also just really do want to read and watch this material cause it's all useful and the more info I have to work from, the better. So yeah. Goats may have to go on hold. But I'm also like ready to just go buy fencing and make a pen and buy a couple goat kids in the spring so idk. But it also wouldn't be fair to them if I did buy them only to move in a year because I know my parents likely won't want to care for them or wouldn't do it right and they would probably need to be sold. Which of course is not fair to get a baby goat and then sell it in 6 months or a year. I may need to wait until I have a farm lol the other option is to just not move and stay here and get said goats but I do not want to stay here forever (can barely even tolerate it now) and I think the city would be fun. But I'm conflicted whether to even move or if I do whether to just buy a farm amd not move to a city because I really like the whole homesteading, farming thing and raising all my animals and the open space/air but I also love music, concerts, etc. And want to have fun while I'm young and Pittsburgh has a pretty good music scene and I have friends there and family nearby so it seems like a good fit. But also as of now, I think the money would be best spent on dog training school and not goats. I am sure my parents would pay for some of it or all of it if I asked but I don't want them to. I'd rather just raise it myself.

sometimes I hate being a responsible adult.