You are right. You need to know. And when I think about it this is a way of trying to protect her. I have been through this and I agonize about decisions I have made. I'm still going through it. I used to joke that 2 out of 3 ain't bad but inside my heart was breaking. I wish you all the best of luck. Don't be afraid to ask for help for guidance. And most important don't forget to take care of yourself too.