Chicken fishing
Hatching
- Jun 26, 2018
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I don't know everyone but I really hate my life. I don't want it to be this way and I don't understand what it is so miserable... I truly don't. But every day where is keeps continuing I get more damaged and there isn't anything I can do to fix it. I was given a very bad situation in life and I don't know how to fix it. I'm so deeply so deeply in love with my chickens. They always want to snuggle with me and I love them for being my sweet little girls... I just act so normal and loving towards them... And it's hard for me to not have an unsettling look when I'm in public. It just feeds into my pain and loneliness. Sometimes people say that understand my loneliness but don't because they don't know what it's like to have anyways been that way and how emotionally traumatizing it is... Earlier this year I wasn't too kind to chickens I didn't care I had a few but I didn't care about them.. it wasn't until I actually decided to keep a chicken that I learned she would be so sweet now I'm so in love with my chickens and they fill an emotional gap in me that I wouldn't be able to control as well as I am without them. Sometimes I'm just kind of mad at everyone because no one cares about me and I don't know why so I just hate them for it. I talk to almost everyone and I love people but I can't find happiness or friends or anything like that despite being so good to people. I've had people talk to me and ask why would I ever be depressed because I seem like such a good person, and I don't know why life treats me this way... My chickens just love being around me though and they touch my heart and have a way of softening everything about me and helping me relax. They're in my house right now and whenever I'm home they will jump on my couch with me and climb all over me.... They just trust me so much and it's so sweet. People judge me .. or they are off put by my unsettling and hurt look that I sometimes have but I'm not crazy... Violent or anything bad .I have a lot of love inside of me and my chickens give me the chance to show it. I do anything for my girls anything at all. I have oxygen tanks for them... Medicine so I can give them shots if they are sick. I let them hang out inside out of the heat.. I do anything for these girls to show them my appreciation and that i absolutely adore them. Sometimes because I'm so angry that that life hurts me the way it does for no reason that I just want nothing to do with the world and just be with my chicken babies..