Tanichca
Sparkle Magnet
Two years ago, I had a bad pain in my left wrist that just wouldn't go away. Over the next few months, it spread everywhere else. About three months ago, I was diagnosed with type 3 Ehlers danlos syndrome. My joint don't hold my bones together, which causes extreme chronic pain. Well, that took away my dream of becoming an air force pilot. So I put my trust in God, and kept on moving.
Two months ago, I had a horrible pain in my chest coupled with shortness of breath and a bad headache. That turned out to be dysautonomia caused by a sublexed (semi-dislocated) set of ribs. Basically, my heart is weak and has to work double-time to get my blood flowing. So now, I'm pretty short on breath all the time and have some wicked dizzy spells. Well, I thought, that puts a damper on me going to Fransiscan university and eventually to Austria for college, and, because dysautonomia affects internal (especially reproductive) organs, getting married might be a bad idea. Again, I put my trust in God and moved on.
A week ago, I had a pain in my lower back that was so extreme that I couldn't even move. If I had to walk, I was bent double and took shuffling steps. Not even large amounts of painkillers took it away. Thankfully, it was only around for roughly 24 hour before I slept it off, but it turned out to be a sublexed spine. Which can
(and often does) eventually become so bad that the sufferer becomes paralyzed at young ages. I know an 18 year-old who's in a wheelchair because of it, which is very scary for me. That might make it hard for me to be a psychiatrist.
On wednesday, I got braces. Yesterday, a massive pain in my upper jaw (also resistant to painkillers) struck me down all day. Which looks like it's TMJ (temporomandibular joint disorder) and it's going to make it very hard for me to keep braces on for the two to three years that I'll need them.
Right now, it just feels like everything I've wanted to do with my life has gone down the drain, and the fact that every few months a new type of pain appears isn't helping at all. It's getting really hard for me to do anything, and I struggle to still be able to trust in God and my faith. I don't understand why I'm stuck with this, I have so much that I could do, and now I'm looking at a near future of wheelchairs, heart problems, and dependance. I'm still a teenager! I should be out having fun with my friends, running and playing sports, dating, enjoying life, and I'm stuck taking medications and gloomily thinking about the future while enduring massive pain. I don't understand!!!
Prayer would be really, really appreciated right now. Thanks for listening to me rant, everyone.
Two months ago, I had a horrible pain in my chest coupled with shortness of breath and a bad headache. That turned out to be dysautonomia caused by a sublexed (semi-dislocated) set of ribs. Basically, my heart is weak and has to work double-time to get my blood flowing. So now, I'm pretty short on breath all the time and have some wicked dizzy spells. Well, I thought, that puts a damper on me going to Fransiscan university and eventually to Austria for college, and, because dysautonomia affects internal (especially reproductive) organs, getting married might be a bad idea. Again, I put my trust in God and moved on.
A week ago, I had a pain in my lower back that was so extreme that I couldn't even move. If I had to walk, I was bent double and took shuffling steps. Not even large amounts of painkillers took it away. Thankfully, it was only around for roughly 24 hour before I slept it off, but it turned out to be a sublexed spine. Which can
(and often does) eventually become so bad that the sufferer becomes paralyzed at young ages. I know an 18 year-old who's in a wheelchair because of it, which is very scary for me. That might make it hard for me to be a psychiatrist.
On wednesday, I got braces. Yesterday, a massive pain in my upper jaw (also resistant to painkillers) struck me down all day. Which looks like it's TMJ (temporomandibular joint disorder) and it's going to make it very hard for me to keep braces on for the two to three years that I'll need them.
Right now, it just feels like everything I've wanted to do with my life has gone down the drain, and the fact that every few months a new type of pain appears isn't helping at all. It's getting really hard for me to do anything, and I struggle to still be able to trust in God and my faith. I don't understand why I'm stuck with this, I have so much that I could do, and now I'm looking at a near future of wheelchairs, heart problems, and dependance. I'm still a teenager! I should be out having fun with my friends, running and playing sports, dating, enjoying life, and I'm stuck taking medications and gloomily thinking about the future while enduring massive pain. I don't understand!!!
Prayer would be really, really appreciated right now. Thanks for listening to me rant, everyone.