Ugh...Seriously frustrated right now!!...Somewhat of an up-date.

[chubbydog811]

I know my issues aren't nearly as bad as I have been reading on here, but I am truley ticked off right now, and really need to vent...
As a little background, so you can understand why this is important to me: I have a horse farm...My old barn burnt down and killed 6 of my horses, leaving me utterly depressed, and not being as close to my current horses as much as I should have been in the past 4 years since that. They were my closest horses - they were in the "special" barn as I used to call it - my retired first pony, 2 show horses, my first 2 projects that I was very proud of, and a brand new foal..We had 3 barns at the time, now down to one...To say the least, they were my favorites, and could never be replaced.
It wasn't until a few months ago that the horse spark came back. Since then, I have been out in the barn training and playing more than I ever was, even more than when I was younger. The horses make me truly happy, if I have a problem, or am upset, I go out to my barn and groom. That's just the way it is.
Anyway, to the point. I found a foal for sale out in NY. Exactly what I have been hoping to find and very cheap. My mum actually gave me the go ahead to buy her, and said we can clean out the extra stall for her. But my truck is now dead, and the people I normally ask to use their truck if mine isn't running, said no (which kind of surprised me...because he said anytime, anywhere, just let me know...Though I totally respect everyone's decision! Just adds to the frustration of not having a running truck). The person who I am buying her from, said that her friend has someone hauling from there to about an hour away from here this weekend, but they want $300 (when it would only cost me $90 at the most to do it myself) I get cranky when I'm upset, that is my way of hiding it, because I am totally heartbroken that I might not be able to get her!
I broke 2 of my rules this week - don't rely on anyone but yourself, and don't get your hopes up...

*Sigh*...I really want this to work out, but it's not looking like it will work out in my favor

This sucks...

 

[debilorrah]

Well that just sucks. For the moment. I bet you something works out in the end, especially if they are motivated to sell the horse.

 

[PineappleMama]

Eh, not fun at all.

If it doesn't happen it doesn't happen... sucks, but there will be other foals. This might give you more time to really bond with those you have, open up more, get that finicky truck fixed (oy been there), get that stall cleaned and ready and then when the next foal at a great price comes you'll be able to snap it right up, pick it up and bring it home.

For the frustration...

that's SO aggravating... and here's hoping for a beautiful new foal in your future.

 

[chubbydog811]

Thanks guys...It makes it worse because this started as a rescue...And it just so happens she is what I wanted

We have 9 total, but they all have their place and get equal amounts of attention. One is getting put down in the next few weeks, then my 2 ponies are going to get put in her paddock with the run-in for the winter. This was going to free up 2 extra stalls besides the empty one. This was due to happen within the same time frame that the foal was supposed to be getting here. Just so happens someone had an open spot on the trailer to haul her for me (but not worth it for $300!)
Just to clarify - we are a boarding/training/lesson barn. 5 are lesson horses, and 3 are my personal horses - a show horse, an upcoming show horse, and my trail project. This girl was to take the place of one of my projects that I am almost finished with.
I've only really bonded with one - the upcoming show horse, that was rescued this past summer...Took me 6 months, spraining my ankle 3 times, getting plowed over, lots of rope burn, more patients than I have, and many bad words spoken before there was trust, and we actually bonded. It's not because of lack of time spent with them, it is the fact that they aren't the horses I'm supposed to bond with (similar to "the one" concept for us humans)...I've trained them all, and that trust and respect is there with all of them, but really, that special connection isn't there.
I got that special feeling about this girl...That's the only reason I'm really pushing it.

 

[chicks4kids]

I'm guessing that the cost to fix your truck is more than the $300 to haul the horse??

 

[noodleroo]

chubbydog811 wrote: "don't rely on anyone but yourself, and don't get your hopes up..."

You appear to be pretty young to have developed this mindset so early in life. My suggestion to you is to change your rules to 'trust yourself, rely on your instincts and hope for all good things to come to you'. After all, you never know what's right around the corner...

 

[chubbydog811]

Yup...It runs, just isn't safe to haul a trailer - sway bar broke. On top of fixing that, it needs to be registered and inspected still...It all had to happen in the same month, of course! Note to self: never buy a Ford truck again.

 

[chubbydog811]

noodleroo: I am 21. I have had a lot of crap happen during my short time here, and have been ruined to the point of being self reliant and have a hard time trusting...It's usually when I break out of my shell, and trust someone that something bad follows, so it is self taught to be the way I am (yes, I will admit it!)
I go by my gut. My gut is almost alway right. It has only led my the wrong way once. I think this is why I bonded with my little rescue gelding...We are very much a like.

 

[noodleroo]

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That's kinda what I thought might have happened. Change your expectations now while you're so young. We attract what we think about the most. We really do. We also tend to get what we expect so my advice to you is expect the best. Things don't always turn out like we hope, but expecting things to go wrong is EXACTLY the kind of thinking that draws disappointment right to you. You are not ruined. Every day you have a new opportunity to start over. You've taught yourself to be self reliant; that's good. But never accept mediocracy for fear of not obtaining happiness...

 

[BantamoftheOpera]

Sounds like a pretty crappy situation. hopefuly something unexpected (in a good way) will turn up.