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Yes while I may not be able to pick many of MY BYC BUDDIES (who) ROCK out in a crowd. I don't consider any of you as strangers cause ya can't be any stranger than me. It means so much to me to have all of your support.
I will tell you that I refused to give up my cell phone as I knew that could be my "life line" to the outside world. Because the only BYC number I had was Chickielady's wonderful husbands cell # I was able to text him and knew that CL would get the message and pass it on to MY BYC BUDDIES (who) ROCK !!!
I had actually tried to get things planned out to make it easier for DW, DsD and Michelle "just in case" I didn't come home that night. While waiting for DsD to get here (she had to drive 25 miles) I laid out things that I may need IF I was going to be booked for a while. I also had a plan in place that would have allowed me to get my BYC fix.
While I am sorry for scarring all of you. I can not begin to express how much it means to know that I have such a great group of friends out there who care so much! Now I have to make some important changes to my life. Unfortunarely the change that is the most important is kind out of my hands.
I now have a whole new persepctive of anxiety !!
And just to put to rest any speculation ( not that I think you are judging me) I am going to basically lay out my life style. I don't smoke but I use smokeless tobacco, I am working stopping that. I rarely drink beer
and if I do it's only one. I do occasionally have a drink of whiskey (when available). I do not drink to get drunk. I have one just to help relax. I do not use any kind of "street drugs". I rarely take OTC meds and only take RX's as needed and prescribed. When I had shoulder surgery I refused to pain meds so I could keep a clear head to take care of DW.
OK sorry for the rant but now you may know me better. If this causes to think less of me so be it I am who I am. But what I really hope is that by exposing myself I may help others to see that you really don't have to be doing things that wrong to end like this.
I love MY BYC BUDDIES (you) ROCK !!!
No one here is judging you (or should be). We are just glad to have you back. Take care. I knew a very healthy lady...only organic, jogged..great shape. She passed from cancer. It was horrible. Just take care of yourself and take it easy. Don't worry about those bells at this point, get better.
