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That would be my DH and DS at times too. When DS gets upset and seems to believe the world is plotting against him, I think of my DH and hope he will not be like that for life. Neither of them possess the ability to move on when things make them angry. Me? If something frustrates me and I can't solve it right away, I walk away ang get back to it later when I can think clearly. In the mean time I'll find something else to do, preferably something enjoyable. Both DH and DS blow up, blaming everyone but themselves for their issues. I tell them they have a choice about how they feel, and if they are miserable, they have no one but themselves to blame. They both suffer from depression, and I wonder if the anger reaction it is part of they same problem. When they are depressed, they can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and when they are angry, they can't look past their problems. Doesn't always make for an easy marriage, and sometimes leaves me desiring someone I don't have.

BTW, my DD is NOT just like me. She does not like to cook or work in the garden, and she gets her feelings hurt way too easily. DS is more likely to help in the kitchen, especiallt cooking, I suspect because he likes to eat. He eats well. DH almost never eats what I cook - not enough grease or hot sauce and too many veggies for him. If DD got her way, she'd eat just like dad.
 
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*looks at sig* Hmmm. . . Does Luke need some attention? How about Dozer? I would bet that those boy-children of yours would love it if you spent some time with them.

Ah, yes, Dozer and Luke. Both unconditional lovers. When coming in from pasture Spring will run past me to get to the alfalfa lure I have in the enclosure but Luke will stop beside me on his way in for some individual attention. It's more important to him than alfalfa. Today was supposed to be a horse only day but realized Spring needs shoes and Luke needs a trim so no riding but thought I would at least give them both a bath then brush, clip and scratch them and dote on them for a while but the neighbor is having a 55th B day. She was showing off her garden beds which are still just wood frames and have been that way the entire summer but her DH wrote on the cardboard weed lining "Happy Growing, just like our love" What a bunch of animal poop. Then they always have this B day speech about love and family and it goes on and on at which point I made my exit. Gag me! Hmm, maybe thats what I had hoped life might be like but now just need to get the heck out of Dodge! Funny though, Bella our Corgi likes to run from our property and raid her compost. The other day she came home with a quesadilla in her mouth! Isn't it funny how mans best friend is truly your best friend! Bella likes to lick feet. When I'm at the computer she will lay at my feet and lick my feet and legs. Something like that would gross most people out (including me usually) but when thats all you get I have to say I actually like it. Sad, I know but whatever. And Dozer will sit and sit in the garden walkway waiting for me to finish working. When he has a choice he won't leave my side. Well, maybe tomorrow I can give the horses a bath. Last nice day before clouds roll in.
 
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That would be my DH and DS at times too. When DS gets upset and seems to believe the world is plotting against him, I think of my DH and hope he will not be like that for life. Neither of them possess the ability to move on when things make them angry. Me? If something frustrates me and I can't solve it right away, I walk away ang get back to it later when I can think clearly. In the mean time I'll find something else to do, preferably something enjoyable. Both DH and DS blow up, blaming everyone but themselves for their issues. I tell them they have a choice about how they feel, and if they are miserable, they have no one but themselves to blame. They both suffer from depression, and I wonder if the anger reaction it is part of they same problem. When they are depressed, they can't see the light at the end of the tunnel and when they are angry, they can't look past their problems. Doesn't always make for an easy marriage, and sometimes leaves me desiring someone I don't have.

BTW, my DD is NOT just like me. She does not like to cook or work in the garden, and she gets her feelings hurt way too easily. DS is more likely to help in the kitchen, especiallt cooking, I suspect because he likes to eat. He eats well. DH almost never eats what I cook - not enough grease or hot sauce and too many veggies for him. If DD got her way, she'd eat just like dad.

Both of mine (younger son and DH) have depression too but neither will admit it or do anything about it. Thought if I had a daughter she'd be the third and third times a charm. Really, out of 3 theres got to be one like me! Think my younger might be a little like me but he's angry and hurt over his disability and life so I guess a lot of baggage there. Sigh, he was such a sweet, empathetic loving little boy. Heart breaking. Maybe someday.
 
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You are sooo sweet! Thanks! Hey, have your check for Solo. Planned on giving it to you last Saturday but of course FORGOT! Then wrote the address down and deleted the text, then lost the paper I wrote it on. OK, just going to look it up in the phone book. Warning though. This check is really beat up! I've been carrying it around forever.
 
I have to be the biggest idiot on th planet right now!
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Remember a couple of weeks ago I talked about a big Bobcat coming through my yard?
Well he came back and got one of my young girls.
I came out just 1 minute too late. He had gotten her and broke her neck.
She died in my arms.
How could I have not realized that it would be back?
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How did I not think about that when I went in to go to the bathroom?
WHY!!!
I am now in the market for chicken protection that uses bullets.
I am too upset right now to do anything but kick myself over, & over, & over, & over.
I feel so stupid! And guilty, and sad.
Thanks for letting me vent in a place that I feel safe.
 
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I hate to even ask but which girl did he get???? I'm so sorry ! I know you are very attached to your girls!. Last Tues at 10:30am I was up on a ladder and my girls were in the big run. I heard them squawk. and looked up and saw the female Bobcat walking along the fence and into the woods.
 
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I hate to even ask but which girl did he get???? I'm so sorry ! I know you are very attached to your girls!. Last Tues at 10:30am I was up on a ladder and my girls were in the big run. I heard them squawk. and looked up and saw the female Bobcat walking along the fence and into the woods.

My Splash OE from CL.
I am still cursing about it.
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I should have been out there! I usually sit outside either in front with them or on my deck swing so I can hear them right away.
I wasn't there!
She died in my arms.
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