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[BYC910]

Whereabouts is he? E is a state guy too (Transportation) - just got a temporary job in Sacramento that'll start this summer.

Somewhere close to you is all I know . I'll text him he is supposed to send me his sisters address. I'll ask supposed to be working with the forestry dept. this summer .

.... Its big...... how many acres do you have?

deb

107 total but only 87 is ours .I care for it all .Used to cut and bale all the hay at my sister and BIL's place to . just got to be to much for me with Ben .I can't catch up, keep back tracking to read bits and pieces I missed . I hate not being able to spend as much time on the pond, as I used to .Sorry your having to go through Grandma's dementia .Just remember Deb you figure into the equation with Grandma . No matter how hard and no matter the hurt you must do what is best for both of you . The future pain can't be considered now .Even though it is ever present, try and push it aside . You can deal with that when the time comes . Ben just went outside, butt naked good thing we live way off the road

 

[BYC910]

Only if I get the first bullet between the eyes


Deb it's hard for me to read your posts, losing mom 6 months ago and she had dementia and I dealt with similar stuff, Oh God I miss her every day but yet I don't want her back to suffer more and longer. I think whoever wrote the song whisky lullaby had to live a loss like that because I can understand the line perfectly putting the bottle to the head and pulled the trigger. You don't want to move on or can't. I am losing the only home I have known, I have lost my mom and the pet that I had for over 15 years that in essence became my best friend thru the struggles with my last job, my disability and mom. the cat was mom's but she lost mom before mom departed us, mom became more and more withdrawn from the world and the cat became more mine and understood that I was owner, I'm sure she didn't know why mom didn't respond to her much then not ever, she just knew I was there and cared for her and knew mom was a shell of herself and I was caring for mom also. My mom didn't want me to kn ow dad's family so I don't know who they are or where they are. Only met half his siblings. My mom's family are so warped I cannot be around them. My brothers could care less If I am alive. 1 told me several years ago while I was caring for mom and her health problems that I was not allowed at his house until I had a wife and kids, the other brother threw me out on thanksgiving day a few years back because I showed up after he invited me. because they realized they didn't have enough space for everyone so they pulled out a lawn chair and a tv tray for mom and asked me to go home. Yea lots of love there.

This is one of the saddest things I've read in a while .I hope your immediate family treats you better than your extended family. I feel selfish saying how close my family is except one brother and his kids . we are tight . even my stepsister's children are close to us . My cousins on my dads side re close don't know mothers family that well . The ones we were close to are all gone . But you got pond family now and we get it. We would never pull the chair out from under you at Thanksgiving dinner . Them folks got no manners

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Yesterday.... Nice Lake Michigan Smallmouth.
Walleye weren't biting though.
Last year on this same spot same day v we caught 20 large walleye.... This year none.... The rain we had lowered the water temperature 12 degrees and the fish were not biting at all.
And I know I'm wearing sweats and slippers fishing... I'm still not overly comfortable putting pants on the open incision..... Soon.

Well three weeks longer than I thought you would wait

 

[perchie.girl]

Somewhere close to you is all I know . I'll text him he is supposed to send me his sisters address. I'll ask supposed to be working with the forestry dept. this summer .

107 total but only 87 is ours .I care for it all .Used to cut and bale all the hay at my sister and BIL's place to . just got to be to much for me with Ben .I can't catch up, keep back tracking to read bits and pieces I missed . I hate not being able to spend as much time on the pond, as I used to .Sorry your having to go through Grandma's dementia .Just remember Deb you figure into the equation with Grandma . No matter how hard and no matter the hurt you must do what is best for both of you . The future pain can't be considered now .Even though it is ever present, try and push it aside . You can deal with that when the time comes . Ben just went outside, butt naked good thing we live way off the road

I am trying.... I have to make it up as I go... I could feel the armor building as the confrontation wound down. I used to shut down completely.... Thank goodness good pharma has helped me see that its not me its her inability to reason.... I try to keep cheerful around her it helps.

What kicks me is she cant hear me but she can hear my son.... Different tones to our voices...

I really admire you and how you deal with your son.... Been known to run out butt naked myself.... I only have 20 acres but the forty next to me is vacant as is most of the land out to BLM land ..... about two miles of it. straight south.

deb

 

[perchie.girl]

Hey @room onthebroom we need to meet up sometime at a half way point... Starbucks or something.... After my surgery There should be some great places along the PCH... (Pacific Coast Higway)

deb

 

[sourland]

Good morning Pond.

 

[chickisoup]

Good morning Pond.

Morning! quiet on this shore of the pond, hoping no storms on your end. Break in the rain today so I should finally be able to get those tomato plants in the ground before precip rumbles back in tomorrow. Prayers for no nasty weather for those around the rest of the pond

Hugs & prayers work Thanks, Chicki. How you coming along on the recovery road?

Morning Whites, It's not been easy, but like Phil, I've been behaving myself so recovery is going great. Tomorrow I find out if I can finally return to a bit more normal, aka outside chores, life.

 

[kwhites634]

View attachment 1786384 Morning! quiet on this shore of the pond, hoping no storms on your end. Break in the rain today so I should finally be able to get those tomato plants in the ground before precip rumbles back in tomorrow. Prayers for no nasty weather for those around the rest of the pond



Morning Whites, It's not been easy, but like Phil, I've been behaving myself so recovery is going great. Tomorrow I find out if I can finally return to a bit more normal, aka outside chores, life.

I can relate. I hate being told I can't do something I do every day; major frustration.

 

[bobbi-j]

I can relate. I hate being told I can't do something I do every day; major frustration.

Me too, but when I had my hips done, my keeper kept a pretty tight rein on me the first couple of weeks.

 

[perchie.girl]

Heading to the Cardiologist today for my last "inspection" and hopefully she will fill out paperwork for the Surgeon. "approval"

deb

 

[kwhites634]

Me too, but when I had my hips done, my keeper kept a pretty tight rein on me the first couple of weeks.

A friend's doctor told him, after his hip replacement about a month ago, that he might be able to resume playing softball by June or July.