I am scared my diverticula is coming back. About 6 years ago I had rapid flare ups that would literally start the day after I got off antibiotics. After about 15 flare ups, It was recommended I have a colon resection. I was eager to get it taken care of so I agreed and went under the knife. "It's a simple routine procedure" I was told. In the course of the following year I had to have 4 surgeries. I had every complication I was warned about and some that where never mentioned.
I had to have 3 emergency surgeries, flat-lined twice, my intestine ruptured, I went septic... I would spend 20-28 days in the hospital at a time and not able to eat food for 2 weeks at a time. I was not able to have physical contact with my son because he could get me sick. Every time I went to the hospital they had to keep me in the critical care unit. When I got out, I was institutionalized and suffered from extreme acrophobia. It was well over a year till I let a stranger touch me. I was so scared of everything. Just checking the mail required my wife to go wit me and literally hold my hand. I lost about 60 pounds, and was already skinny to begin with.
Both times I flat-lined, it was the most peaceful thing I have ever experienced. I felt like the fight was over and I could finally rest. Then I was brought back to a miserable existence called life.
Once I physically healed, which took a few years, I was and have been fine. Able to eat and do pretty much anything I want. Till about 2 weeks ago, I had my first flare up, and have not felt right since then. My Dr is convinced it was a 1 time event, but I am having a hard time accepting it.
