As a local foods chef I have visited many farmers in the region & purchase farm raised meats exclusively. It gets VERY expensive, even with how little meat we eat.
I bought 6 hens in June. Mostly so my S.O. would let me get ducks. I never wanted chickens before & had a very cavalier attitude about the whole thing. I want to do meat birds, but wanted to make sure that I would enjoy husbandry and be a good owner, so I decided to start small this year.
I fell in love with the chickens. I read all the books and too many articles here before I got them and they are a fantastic pet. I tell all my friends they are the best 1st pet for kids, and I believe it.
To us, they have become pets. They all have names, but only answer to "Chicken Oh Chicken" (my ducks only answer to "Quackers" so I tell my S.O. "we only have two pets, not 12". If they had to be called individually they would be 12 pets. That is my chicken math.).
I bought 6 hens. Mostly because I was told some would die, and some could be roosters even if they were sold as hens.
Two are roosters. My favorite chicken is a rooster.
I don't have the time to add on to the coop and run, so I can't get 6 more hens to satisfy his "needs". Everyone says I need 10 hens to keep him from hurting the ladies. I wish I could do it, but we decided we wouldn't get into meat birds til next year.
That means this weekend I have to cull my favorite chicken, and the other rooster. I have thought through all my other options, but keep coming back to the same solution. If I post him on craigslist most likely he will be eaten, and who knows how humanely he will be treated before that happens, and during? If I house him with the girls he will overwork them & I will feel awful. I could send him elsewhere for processing but I love him too much to just drop him with a stranger & let them do it. He trusts me, runs to me first and is my buddy. If he is to be sacrificed I feel like it should be by my hand. I will be weeping the entire time. I may even puke. But I think I will sleep better that night than if I made any other choice.
When my hens stop laying well and the time comes to make room for the new gals I will keep any that are good broody hens, but I can't sustain freeloaders for too long. My property is not huge. It has a lot of good forage for the chickens but I don't think it could sustain more than a 25 or 30 birds total, and honestly, 30 birds sounds like an awful lot to me. I am not sure I could sustain that large of a flock.
I have to admit I regret my cavalier attitude when I started this. I thought I could remain objective, but I love animals too much. After months of thoughtful meditation I have decided that since I can't house my rooster(s) with the girls in a way I think would be humane for all that the most humane thing to do is slaughter them myself.
I have never killed anything. I was a vegetarian for 15 years, and we still only eat meat a few times a month. I slow down in the rain to try to avoid squashing frogs. I dread tomorrow morning more than anything, but sometimes what is right is really hard. I got into this to teach the kids where their food comes from, so the lessons begin. For all of us.