Okay folks, if you don't want to read a post about me bemoaning the miserable past few months we've been having, click away now.
Sorry, everyone, I just need a place to unload.
My husband and I are just at our wits' end. This year honestly has been nothing but downturns and bad luck.
For some reason we cannot get out of this bad turn of events. As much as I try to remain upbeat and optimistic, I'm just so defeated and beat down that I'm near tears all the time.
My son is doing well, that's not an issue. The dog's paw is finally healed up, and that's good.
Since they were released by some morons the other day, we've lost almost all of our chickens. They're just dropping like flies in the run or the yard, or dead in the coop in the morning. All my chicks died. I'm down to my RIR, Morgan, and 8 girls.
I'm medicating them with Teramycin right now, hoping I can catch something, but honestly, it's like they've been poisoned or something.
One of our cats was dead on the porch this morning.
Last night, my Mom finally got enough courage up to call me and let me know that my Gramma's cancer has gone terminal. She's basically on hospice care now. It's a matter of weeks, they say.
The car needs $800 in repairs to pass inspection.
My sister just self-admitted to the county treatment center this morning with alcholism and suicidal thoughts.
As of now, Christmas won't even happen, because there isn't enough money to grocery shop, let alone go out and start buying stuff for Christmas.
To top it all off, since we weren't able to keep our tax payments up to date through my son's illness, the bank is putting us into "forced escrow", which basically will increase our monthly mortgage payment by the amount of our delinquent taxes, plus an estimated amount of NEXT year's taxes, and long story short, our mortgage payment is going up close to $200 starting next month.
I sat down last night to try to figure it out, and there's no way our current income will even near meet our living costs, so I have to go back to work. Right now, we're a family of 4 living on an income of $32,000 a year. With the cost of gas and food prices going up, there's no way I can stay at home with my kids anymore.
My husband was so upset last night about me having to go back to work, he was actually in tears. He feels like he's let his family down, because he can't provide enough, and that's totally not the case.
Anyway, I'm just feeling like there's a black cloud of misery floating above us. I'm trying so hard to lean on my Faith and put my troubles in God's hands, but I'm just falling short of that.
Thanks for listening. Wish me luck finding a decent nusring position. Monday I go out to find a job.
Em
Sorry, everyone, I just need a place to unload.
My husband and I are just at our wits' end. This year honestly has been nothing but downturns and bad luck.
For some reason we cannot get out of this bad turn of events. As much as I try to remain upbeat and optimistic, I'm just so defeated and beat down that I'm near tears all the time.
My son is doing well, that's not an issue. The dog's paw is finally healed up, and that's good.
Since they were released by some morons the other day, we've lost almost all of our chickens. They're just dropping like flies in the run or the yard, or dead in the coop in the morning. All my chicks died. I'm down to my RIR, Morgan, and 8 girls.
I'm medicating them with Teramycin right now, hoping I can catch something, but honestly, it's like they've been poisoned or something.
One of our cats was dead on the porch this morning.
Last night, my Mom finally got enough courage up to call me and let me know that my Gramma's cancer has gone terminal. She's basically on hospice care now. It's a matter of weeks, they say.
The car needs $800 in repairs to pass inspection.
My sister just self-admitted to the county treatment center this morning with alcholism and suicidal thoughts.
As of now, Christmas won't even happen, because there isn't enough money to grocery shop, let alone go out and start buying stuff for Christmas.
To top it all off, since we weren't able to keep our tax payments up to date through my son's illness, the bank is putting us into "forced escrow", which basically will increase our monthly mortgage payment by the amount of our delinquent taxes, plus an estimated amount of NEXT year's taxes, and long story short, our mortgage payment is going up close to $200 starting next month.
I sat down last night to try to figure it out, and there's no way our current income will even near meet our living costs, so I have to go back to work. Right now, we're a family of 4 living on an income of $32,000 a year. With the cost of gas and food prices going up, there's no way I can stay at home with my kids anymore.
My husband was so upset last night about me having to go back to work, he was actually in tears. He feels like he's let his family down, because he can't provide enough, and that's totally not the case.
Anyway, I'm just feeling like there's a black cloud of misery floating above us. I'm trying so hard to lean on my Faith and put my troubles in God's hands, but I'm just falling short of that.
Thanks for listening. Wish me luck finding a decent nusring position. Monday I go out to find a job.
Em