How about a suggestion...I'm more than willing to keep posting encouragement and I believe Kiki is too. How about you do one thing towards your goal tomorrow, and share it with us? It doesn't have to be anything huge. One walk with your dog, one healthy meal (have you tried your soups yet? I've never seen those and wondered what they'd be like). Just one thing to get you started.
Regarding fish...well I had a betta too. Then I felt bad that he was in a little bowl so I bought him a big bowl. Then a 2 gallon tank...when it was all said and done, he lived a glorious life in a 10 gallon tank with a heater, plants, decorative stones, and fish toys. He lived far longer than bettas are supposed to live and now I'm getting nostalgic and want another fish, even though that was over a decade ago!