yeah, it is so helpful to get someone who really knows what he's doing, or go to a place where they are doing it and let them teach you...it is hard on the first one...you feel like your doing a terrible job.
Additionally, Nayeli, if you find someone willing to show you how to do it, maybe you can buy one of his animals.
Butchering a rooster that you don't know and never seen before will be easier for you

But again, having eggs and a garden is already a good start and provides the proteins you need, so.. if you don't want to kill, you don't have to!
I am also struggling with this decision. I am OK with ducks and chickens but.. I am missing the sweet taste of brown meat. I almost never have beef anymore. I thought of raising goats for the milk, and also for the dark meat that probably satisfy my "dark meat" taste.
But a goat is so CUTE!!!!!!! And so fun.. and so close looking to a dog. I tried to imagine killing one, with the little calling sound they make... arg. I don't think I can.
I wish I could though.. If I could make my milk and cheese and would almost NEVER go to the grocery store in summer and autumn..