Bleddyn was curled up against a tire attached to somebody’s van, coughing out the polluted air that her lungs had deemed useless. The white and blistering knuckles of her right hand still gripped the gun she’d had for the past, what, hour- hours?
Time was terrifyingly relative. Taking lives and keeping yours could merge into an immoral blur, but when it came down to the discharge of a bullet or the thrusting of a blade, seconds morphed into excruciatingly hours.
Cold from the tire’s aluminum rim countered her perspiring back and she was grateful for it. Despite the raging inferno’s demise, it was bound to leave a lasting impact on the atmosphere for a while yet. Maybe the wildfire wasn’t even entirely out. That would better explain the unbearable heat that was making everything hurt- and not just physical afflictions.
Ash was to the left of her, seated inside on the van's floor with her legs hanging out, but the way her head rested on her shoulders seemed abnormal. Bleddyn wasn’t too sure that her injured mother was fully awake.
Maybe that was a blessing in disguise. If Ash were aware, words would be inevitable- heartbreaking words.
And where could she even begin to start?
“I’m sorry for killing your husband and soul mate and best friend you’ve loved since you were my age” wouldn’t cut it now.
Or ever.
Every day at school, she’d be bound to hear a disheartening account of how steadily inhospitable someone’s home was due to heated arguments. Sadder still was watching one of her peers suffer through their parents’ permanent separation. It seemed a lot of partnerships couldn’t comfortably withstand the strain of raising a family. So it’d been obvious for a long time that her parents’ relationship was different.
They saw eye-to-eye so much, it was almost cliché. Thinking back, she couldn’t pinpoint a single fallout intense enough to count as an actual fight. Sure, they’d had their civil conflicts, which usually happened when tensions got seriously high. And inhuman lives could definitely generate exorbitant levels of stress.
The bottom line was, anything that ever went subtly awry between them was always justified. Maybe they were both accomplished masters at hiding serious discrepancies from her, but she highly doubted it. Their little family had been through a lot- together. She’d seen it all and still Ash and Connor’s bond seemed pretty darn near adamantine.
Maybe it was what they’d brought each other through. They knew there was too much grief in life to let your most vital relationship go sour.
And Bleddyn had just extinguished that remarkable light.
Now, because of her and her freaky ability, her mom was not only a widow, but a single parent too.
Didn’t you get tax deductions for that?
Tax deductions. Bleddyn almost laughed at how far her mind had wandered. Almost.
She rubbed one of her legs where a blooming bruise glared through shredded denim. So much of her clothing was torn or just plain missing that it would be seriously embarrassing if anyone really looked.
And what I did…
For years…all of it…really got what I wished for, didn’t I? Had to come with a cost, didn’t it?
But why now? Should that have even been possible? We’re not even near any fault lines.
Summoning a completely spontaneous earthquake. Despite the great improvement with civil rights and freedoms for inhumans, if any officials got a whiff of what she was capable of, and that it was completely involuntary, uncontrolled…
Maybe that’d actually be best.
Suddenly, Ash leaned back into the ajar van door. But when Bleddyn turned to look, she saw that her mom's eyes weren't entirely open. Her right hand was pressed back at an awkward angle against the van's floor, but it was barely holding her up. Her mouth parted once, then twice, three times, and only then Bleddyn caught what was trying to escape.
"Connor."
Bleddyn’s bottom lip trembled and she blinked rapidly against the brimming tears. Her darkening mind should've proved she couldn’t just sit here anymore, but her father's name really got the message through. The van was occupied by a good amount of their friends and family; her half-delirious mother would be fine without her.
So she she got up on quaking legs and limped back toward the epicenter of this unwinnable war.