➡I accidentally bought Balut eggs: 2 live ducks! Now a Chat Thread!

[sdm111]

Great areas but I would change the chicken wire or overlay with 2x4 welded wire. And a few bales of straw for bedding

 

[ShrekDawg]

You aren't going to "be cured" (for lack of better phrasing) in just one day. Don't be so hard on yourself. You should allow yourself to be able to focus on the good stuff that you've done today. If you ONLY focus on all the stuff that makes you feel bad, all it is going to accomplish is making you feel never good enough. That is not healthy (mentally) and it leads to more not so healthy behaviors. It is GOOD to acknowledge the stuff that you need to work on. It is good to share here. It is a way to hold yourself accountable and that is a good thing. There is a lot of love, and it may at times be the not so fun Tough Love to be given, but people around here care enough to give it. So if you've done more today than you usually do, that's great! It is an accomplishment. Are you perfect? No. But do you have the ability to improve. Yes. Think of it as a challenge to maybe do something else, no matter how small. A little more each day. Just keep moving 1 step at a time.

Thank you!! That was sweet you are right but idk, I guess it’s just that I’ve only done like 3 things, and then have been on the iPad the whole rest of the time. I still kind of wasted the day a bit. Especially the last few hours. I should have gotten all the stuff I wanted to do done sooner and then now I’m done doing stuff but still sitting here. And I guess I’m kinda thinking my room coulda been cleaned better instead of just putting one little thing of clothes in a drawer. Idk. I guess I am just a little disappointed in myself that I couldn’t avoid checking it this morning plus I guess I’m worried about disappointing Kiki but also my parents. Idk. Mentioned it to my dad and he focused on how I said I wasn't gonna use it this morning/after what you said last night instead of the good I did. I made the mistake of telling him basically what I said here about how I’m majorly addicted to it and wanted to work on it. That was clearly a mistake. And then I mentioned him only focusing on the negatives and not any of the good i also said i did and he goes what are you gonna cry? Which I wasn’t even close to crying but was just frustrated/mad/upset/whatever. He’s just a bully. So I think that might be part of it. Idk. Especially since it also confirms what I was thinking myself about how I failed in my goal. Idk. But ****. Now I actually am crying thinking about all this. I’m such a baby. Geez. The ironic thing is my mental health has actually been pretty good lately, been in a pretty good place and haven’t really thought anything bad like usual, despite doing nothing/being way lazy all the time but yet today I actually manage to accomplish something and I somehow feel WORSE and more depressed

I wish! But no dice, everything is very Valentine's day down here and lemon squares don't make the cut for whatever reason.

Aw that sucks

 

[sdm111]

Please don't use shavings it will cause respiratory issues with the dust and being so enclosed. I've been there I absolutely will not use shavings only wheat straw. For emergency brooders bedding I will use dirt and leaves, pine straw whatever a rake will pick up before shavings.
Oh yeah p.s. I don't like shavings







Nope

 

[sdm111]

 

[Kiki]

Should probably delete that post and all the pictures because for one, it’s super embarrassing, and two, Kiki will probably be mad, but it’s already up so oh well I guess

Kiki will be mad only if you didn't get some laundry washed today.

 

[Kiki]

I don’t even know if I have a full load. But I will check. And for now I am going to clean. Because I have a feeling you would NOT approve of this....... might not get to it all though but may start in the room with less of a mess and get to the other one. The other used to be my actual room but I moved into my brother’s old room a while ago so now the other one is kinda storage but I’ve let it get messy and that’s not even the worst mess. In the basement in a back room I have all my band stuff piled up in boxes and bins stacked pretty high. I need to move that eventually too but not today. Plus nowhere to put it. Although it probably all smells like cat piss now cause it’s been near the room so long.

But anyway, this isn’t even that bad cause my mom always goes in both rooms and cleans up. The little one you used to not really be able to walk much. But I don’t tell her to clean. In fact, I tell her to STAY OUT but she does (even though her room is worse than any of these combined and filled to the brim with junk) so not my fault. But in a way it is. Because if I cleaned it myself, she wouldn’t want to. Same for my laundry. I tell her not to do it but if she didn’t, I would have no clean clothes. I need to just start doing stuff myself. Especially since she does stuff wrong anyway.

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Hey this is not nearly as bad as I expected.
Today just get the clothes off the floor.

 

[ShrekDawg]

Kiki will be mad only if you didn't get some laundry washed today.

I didn’t but only because I don’t have any dirty laundry atm and decided to do other important stuff done. I still did some stuff. And I have a bunch of clean laundry that I need to put away that I will do tonight. And about to empty the dishwasher.

 

[Kiki]

Anyway, been slightly more productive at least

 

[ShrekDawg]

Hey this is not nearly as bad as I expected.
Today just get the clothes off the floor.

Yeah, I picked up and put away all the clothes in the picture. It was mostly all pajamas.

 

[ShrekDawg]

Thanks