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In the 80s and 90s this started to be a huge complaint and they started changing things about 10 yrs ago. Its in all the school handbooks how children are individuals now, how long it takes for those words to become actions i dont know but that issue is at the forefront of education these days.
I still think they're too focused on grouping kids based on chronological age rather than ability. Maybe it costs too much money for them to determine the ability level of each individual student :idunno
 
I still think they're too focused on grouping kids based on chronological age rather than ability. Maybe it costs too much money for them to determine the ability level of each individual student :idunno

Yes sir i agree and the system of holding back students who dont 'deserve' to move forward is So Flawed with the stigma of stupidity attached :(

Really i gotta get in bed. I run hard thru the day and i still dont fall asleep like a little angle at the end of the day. I just always had to deal with it and truck on. I Decided after my second surgery at age 20 that i didnt want to live medicated in any unnatural way and i have to fight it. So ive done it. Ive had many a bad days, some weeks i wouldnt leave my bedroom except to the bathroom, body weights of under 90 lbs, im still trucken on.
 
Okay all, do need to go to bed, have gotten carried away chatting and I have to work tomorrow, so do need to sleep a little. :lau

I am still planning on getting tons done tomorrow though. I’ll only be at work like an hour or so, maybe a bit less, dog sitting/walking, so I’ll do tons after. Will have all have afternoon. And was hoping to go to bed by like 10 or 11 so that I could get up earlier than usual and get some stuff done in the morning but clearly that didn’t happen. :lau but I’m still going to try to get up earlier.

Anyway, I really have to go to sleep, can’t stay today but I will briefly type one of my novels, a mini version, to say all that I did today. It’s all checked on the list, sure, but I want to further explain. And I also want to explain why this is so different from my usual self ha cause I didn’t just do a lot of stuff, I made myself keep doing more even when what I did would have been plenty.

So first off.

I went outside with the intentions of just digging up those grass clumps, I think you could kinda see them in the pics from yesterday, though it was all mixed in and hard to tell, but anyway, ended up doing way more. I get out there and I decide these raspberries have GOT to go. I’ve known they needed to go for a while and had been planning on just trimming some of the runners that had run way into the garden/all over but hadn’t yet. But anyway, I get out there and ended up practically pulling or cutting all of them. All by hand and/or with these little dollar store clippers I had for clipping veggies off plants or pruning, not shearing raspberries. :lau anyway, at first the thorns came through my gloves some, even the tiny thorns on the new runners, so I had to clip more than pull and clipped and clipped into small sections to toss at a time. But then I went inside and got better gloves that the thorns didn’t poke through and was able to really pull/rip so I did. Got some seriously huge runners and they came untangled from the plants. And of course I still kept skipping too and tossing in segments and trying to snip to the ground or close. And some of the canes were super thick and old and harder to cut with my little shears but still managed to. Ended up really almost totally clearing it out. They has really taken over and were running all along the back of the garden (in it) and somewhat around the plants as well as behind the garden. Now I got them all out. That took freaking forever and was a huge pain in the rear and exhausting but it looks much better.

Then, because that was so much work, and I was already sore/in pain/tired, I almost wanted to just give up and go inside and not do the grass or weed but I decided eff that. I’m not going to want to do this tomorrow and will put it off again so I might as well not be lazy and just do it now. Now, granted, I was kinda the opposite of lazy having spent all that time yanking and cutting raspberry vines out by hand, out of a heavily weeded/overgrown area too no less, but still. Decided I could and should do more while I was out there and while it was still daylight. Now, I did go put bug spray on but went right back out. I was going to shower after being in such a weedy area and all that effort and was worried about poison ivy but decided to do more work first.

Anyway, the grass. Idk what kind. But massive clumps of it taken over and all around and mixed in with my tomatoes and beans. I meant to dig it out when it was smaller but now it’s huge and way bigger. But still decided to.

Except because of where it was and it’s proximity to other plants, I decided not to dig at all. I decided to get down on the ground and pull it all out by hand. Every last piece of grass and root. I dig down with my hands and pulled up the root balls I could find too. That said, I actually found it easier now that the grass was so tall and bigger because I could just grab it and rip clumps out and it was a bit looser clump/more spread out whereas before it was a super dense clump which is why I wanted to dig originally. So that made it easier but it still wasn’t exactly “easy” by any stretch. Took freaking forever and, again, all by hand, piece by piece. Sometimes I could grab huge clumps at once, other time it’d be like one plant/piece of it at a time, and even with the clumps, I’d still have to dig a bit for the roots. They’re super shallow but still. So that is what I spend most of the day doing. I was probably out there at least 3 or 4 hours. I did chill with the cat a bit at first since she was out there and did let the chickens out but that’s only like a few minutes total. The vast majority of the time I was out there busting my ass.

And then I also weeded the garden, collected vegetables and eggs, watered, fed the chickens, etc.

And I also spend forever getting a dang chicken in! The others went in fairly easily but two of the littles would not go in. One finally did after a bit but the last little took forever and would not go. Could not be bribed or caught. She almost went in a few times but changed her mind, changed direction, etc. finally, she tried to go inside with her friends, forgot about me in her pacing near the run, walked right towards me. I snagged her and put her in the coop haha she was none too happy but got over it. So that was probably a half hour ordeal :lau or at least 15-20 mins. I almost gave up and said well if she gets eaten she gets eaten a couple times :lau :oops: it wasn’t dark yet or that close to it and knew she would go in eventually so she would have been fine. But I didn’t do that and kept trying. Finally caught her lol I really need to train these littles to come when called and/or be less timid like the bigs lol but then again they’re only that cautious free ranging which I guess is good.

Anyway, was done maybe a bit before 6, didn’t go in till like 6:30 cause of that dang chicken!! She was having a grand time too! Not scared or anything and chasing bugs just having fun lol

Anyway, so THEN. My dad offered to make dinner for me or at least start it since I was so exhausted but NOPE. I wanted to make it myself. Now, I was totally exhausted and did a lot of physical work for hours, so it would have probably been perfectly acceptable to let him make it, but I wanted to do it myself. It’s the recipe Kiki told me about too which is why I was so insistent. Haha now he did heat up the chicken (cooked last night) and start the potatoes since they take so long while I showered but I insisted on doing everything else and only let him do the potatoes.

I took so long they kinda burned but that’s okay lol

Anyway, when I went upstairs to shower, guess what I did? GOT MORE STUFF ON THE LIST DONE.

While I was up there, I decided, might as well change the fish filter and add water too. Takes all of two seconds. So I did. I figure, might as well do it. Sure, I did a ton of physical work, but might as well get some easy stuff done and crossed off and aim for the quantity of stuff done too :lau

So I did. They were happy. Fed them too.

Then I finally showered. That felt good on my poor back LOL

Then came back down and finished making dinner. Ate it. Did spend some time on here during and after, took and posted pictures of it. :lau spent like an hour on the phone and talking to my dad and crossing list items off, etc. after eating. So kinda wasted some time but we didn’t eat till like 7:30 so at this point it’s 8:30, 9ish, didn’t have much else to do anyway.

But guess what? Decided to do even more stuff on that damn list even after all that.

Went downstairs and did the eye and ear rinse on the cat, brushed her teeth, and put the flea medicine on her. 4 more things crossed off. Was aiming for quantity at this point hence why I said I was addicted to crossing stuff off/checking boxes and couldn’t stop working. :lau

Oh and also immediately after dinner I fed her then came back up looked at the list and decided to go do more. So it’s actually 5 things crossed off.

6 actually cause I also gave her a lot of extra attention both outside and downstairs like I wanted to do.

Like I said, quantity. :lau

Then I finally came up here and somehow managed to run around for a few more hours lol but finally brushed my teeth, floss, and even treated my feet, and brushed my hair (not on the list but should be lol always do after showering anyway though since I can only brush it when wet).

And I also read not one but several pages in the devotional cause many were speaking to me haha and prayed of course.

And then obviously have been on here. That’s slightly bad, wanted to read, got some books out, was gonna read and go to bed by like 11 or even 12, but that’s okay. Maybe I will go to bed earlier tomorrow.

Tomorrow I think I will maybe change the cat’s litter box and make some appointments. Those are nice and simple. Or I might actually stake the plants in the garden. That’s important and needs to be done. As well as finishing cleaning up around the chicken coop. Those two things are probably more important so actually I think I will do that.

We are also going to get the tractor and the trailer and load up all the pulled plants and weeds, etc. and take it up on the hill to one of the compost piles so I think while we have the trailer out, I may clean the coop too and finish picking up the shavings behind the coop cause I can just put it in the trailer and drive it up there instead of lugging those crazy heavy bins haha might move the other compost pile too. Should make it fast and easy with the trailer. We will see.

But I think I am definitely going to get some more outside stuff done. It’s been so nice and pretty cool lately that I want to do outside stuff. Might do a few inside things though. We’ll see. Maybe load the dishwasher and/or vacuum. Maybe I could do a load of laundry. Don’t know yet.

Gonna try to do loads of outside stuff first though while there’s still daylight haha

I think cleaning the coop and maybe staking the plants will be good tasks for tomorrow. As well as cleaning up around the coop and garden even if it’s just scooping shavings or moving the railroad ties or whatever. A few miscellaneous items too.

Good day for outside work though I think.

I like this new motivation spree. :lau

Anyway, I guess I did type a full novel after all... so much for mini.. this is probably one of the longest yet. :lau :oops:

Took me like an hour to type it. :oops:

So finally going to bed now.

Making a quick daily list so I’m good to go tomorrow then hitting the hay ha

Goodnight. :)

And sorry this is so long :lau :oops:
 
Oh and I will at least attach pics of the dinner haha will try to get pics of the garden tomorrow. But mostly going to be trying to work and stay off the phone again so we’ll see if I remember. And sorry again that post is so dang long, didn’t realize how long it was until I’m looking at it now. :oops:

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Yes sir i agree and the system of holding back students who dont 'deserve' to move forward is So Flawed with the stigma of stupidity attached :(

Really i gotta get in bed. I run hard thru the day and i still dont fall asleep like a little angle at the end of the day. I just always had to deal with it and truck on. I Decided after my second surgery at age 20 that i didnt want to live medicated in any unnatural way and i have to fight it. So ive done it. Ive had many a bad days, some weeks i wouldnt leave my bedroom except to the bathroom, body weights of under 90 lbs, im still trucken on.

:hugs sorry you went through all that but glad you’re better now. :hugs

And you’re so right, you really do just have to fight it. I too refuse to be medicated, not that there’s anything wrong with people who need it or choose that route, and plus I don’t think I’m bad enough to qualify for any anyway, so I gotta keep going too which I’ve definitely been bad about but trying to be better about. Today I’ve been the mostly productive I’ve been in a long time and it felt great so I’m hoping to keep it up. I think for me though the anxiety is probably the worst and interferes way more than the other stuff but I try not to let it stop me. Phone calls are still a huge challenge as is the OCD, that’s really annoying/difficult, but I try to work through them. Trying to stop the OCD habits and stuff cold turkey currently ha
 
I wonder if I'll get anything done tomorrow :hmm
That depends on you. The only way you'll get out of this hole is by sheer damn willpower.
Trust me, I know exactly where you're coming from. I also know you're probably thinking I don't and wouldn't say that if I really did know. Maybe therapists and meds and encouragement can shove some dirt down in your hole to make it easier to climb out of, but they can't fill it in completely. That effort only comes from you.
I don't expect you to get up tomorrow and be normal. It's not a switch, it's a slow, painful process. Did I mention painful? Because it is. I can't say anything that would be helpful. I know what I've already said will bounce off as well. That's okay. I'm just hoping you'll remember it when, from meds or not, you manage to lay your hands on the tiniest shred of willpower and resolve to do just one thing with it, even though the pain hasn't changed and you still don't have the energy.

You said your sleeping issues were the root of it. I agree with that, but I also saw several patterns in the way you described why it was causing depression (I forget where this was) that makes me think you're also dealing with underlying anxiety. Of course, that's just the impression I got from one single post. (I also think that dividing mental issues up into tidy little piles doesn't work. Basically, something goes wrong and makes your mind hit the klaxons, which makes EVERYTHING go wrong.)

I'm glad you have a few appointments scheduled, though. Hopefully you'll be able to see a doctor.
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I don't like this answer.
I didn't think you would. :lol:

It is exhausting, and it's hard to keep up with a bunch of little assignments that aren't interesting. In elementary school, I didn't have a very good experience overall. I had a few good teachers, but most of the time I spent staring at the clock, wondering when I could go home. I was in the "gifted and talented" program, but I still struggled with repetitiveness, it felt like the same crap was getting presented over and over again, maybe because I have a short attention span. In 6th grade, I had an awful teacher, and that ultimately lead to me losing all motivation for school, and I missed a LOT of middle school.

When I was younger, I always saw school as something that they had to stretch out to occupy as much time as possible so parents could pick up their kids at a certain time, instead of a legitimate learning environment, but then I wondered how other kids didn't hate it as much as I did, and I envied them.

Then in high school, I did okay for a while after missing a lot of middle school, I got straight A's despite sleeping through a lot of it due to my sleep problem, but I eventually lost motivation after a while. My school counselor thinks that I should just start taking college classes at a community college, but I feel like I'll fail because my sleep problem will pose a barrier when it comes to attending.
I hear you there as well. School bored me to tears for a long time and I was failing in a lot of subjects because I couldn't be bothered to do the assignments. Getting my hands on some college textbooks changed that. Suddenly, they were talking about interesting things, and they gave me the answers to the questions I didn't even know I had. I got through high school that way; by taking my boring work to the library's reference section to make it into something cool.

I think you should take just one class at a community college. I'm not up to date on what the prices are now, but it shouldn't be that expensive. Feelings lie, by the way.

It'll be a barrier. But not an impossible one. Maybe make a friend there so they can give you a sheet of notes for the classes you do end up sleeping through.
 
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Goooood morning crusty crew.

Kiki, I should’ve bought the grandma shoes. :hit I’ve got blisters from my damn converse.
I’m currently wearing toms with fluff from the dogs’ stuffed animal squished in to cushion my poor toes.
:gig
Amazon some grandma shoes tonight.
 

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