I am ordained as well but it is not a secret. Many folks on BYC know this as well as my friends and family. For some it makes perfect sense, to others it angers them because my "ministry" does not include a diety of any kind (male or female) and I refuse to tell people what to think. When counseling anyone on this topic my answer is always "find what works for you but harm no one (including yourself)".
I firmly believe that many things nurture us on a spiritual level and that as long as you feed that part of yourself you will continue to grow. For some it is art that feeds them spiritually, so my counsel is to go and create! Painting, gardening, sculpture, music, hiking and even raising our children well can help this part of our brain to florish! I think that the most important thing we can do for ourselves is to continue to grow, to continue learning.
To do anything else is to stagnate. To stop because we think we have all the answers is a slow, sure death for the spirit and mind. We are born curious for a reason. To starve the brain of new experiences and new lessons is the real crime perpetrated by some religions. Just don't stop questioning, don't stop growing. Ever!