OMG I have a BYC Spirit award.
I'm very depressed today. For the past two years I've been really excited about all the possibilities. Saying to myself, this time next year I could 'blah blah blah' and be 'blahing' and have a 'blah'.
The next year I was/am in the exact same posisition I was in the year before, doing the exact same things. It is VERY sad to think that I have not grown in myself or achieved anything. I've wasted a whole year. So now on new year I'm almost brought to tears thinking that this time next year I'll be in the exact same place.
Anyway, what I'm trying to say is that I'm not having a good day and finding out that someone cares and has taken the time to nominate me for an award makes my so happy. So thank you whoever you are.