Oh, it was a long time ago. I am over it. It was awful at the time though. People never talked much about such things.
Goodnight KD! Sleep well and feel better! Try rubbing vick vaporub on your face but not near your eyes!
Yeah, it does seem no one ever really talks about it, even now, and even in psych books etc. My professor mentioned something like that recently and i think felt bad because it's such a hard thing to talk about that no one really does
And thanks, ill try that. Thkjgh i think the meds are startjng to kick in.
Today was better.
Yesterday was just really long because I didn't sleep at all. Not even laid in bed and only slept a few hours or couldn't sleep but at least laid there. Nope. Was working on a paper. Though I didn't start it till very late. Anyway, by then it was too late to go to bed because I had class at 9. Then I went to the student lounge and edited it, printed it, and took it the front desk to put in a mailbox. Was 30 mins late to class but it was okay because I saw a guy from my class before I started working who said no one was there not even professor and I was the first one from class he saw. He told me that when I asked him to tell him I was going to be a few minutes late. But he said if he saw him he would and he was going to text him (not about me, to see where he was). Anyway, it was okay I was late cause he was just telling stories anyway hah and normally we get out like 11 or 1130 (supposed to be till 12) but we got out at like 1030 this time because we just reviewed for the test aka give the questions. Which is also why he was more relaxed and started later. He always starts a tad late but normally only like 10 mins or sometimes he starts right on time but because we weren't really doing anything it was more chill.
ANYWAY.
So then I went in Subway but I sat in my car a bit so it was like 11. I called my mom to make a doc appointment cause all of a sudden my ear was really bugging me. Doc wasnt get in till 3 so we waited. We didnt wanna go to minute clinic.
So I was at subway till 12 or so. Talked to my dad/was outside a while then got ready etc etc etc
No time for a nap
Doctor's appointment was short and fast but then I drove around in my car listening to music for a while.
Finally got back
I think I fell asleep in a chair cause I remember I was gonna watch TV but thought how comfy the chair was and that maybe I would try to sleep in it so I turned it off. Well, closed Netflix and muted the channel. Evidentally, I DID fall asleep because my dad says I did and he woke me up. Except I don't remember waking up but I DO remember being upstairs and thinking I would take a nap so maybe I slept walked? And then didn't remember I already took a nap?
Anyway, I laid down, next thing I know it's like 7:30 and my dad is upstairs. He said I should stay in bed cause I didnt sleep. So I tried to stay in bed and probably fell back asleep for another hour? He says it wasn't that long but who knows. But you know when youre groggy but also refreshed and wide awake from the nap? So i couldn't go back to sleep.
PLUS.
There was lots of big family stuff those few hours and all night too, to which i also woke up to, another reason I couldn't sleep.
And then I think I watched TV till like maybe midnight? Maybe one?
Then finally did go back to sleep and woke up at like 1 lol well, woke up at 10, took my meds, and fell back asleep.
And I finally got the meds when I woke up last night too at like 730.
Supposed to take it 3 times a day for 10 days. So I'm about to take my 4th one
Oh and then we went out to dinner tonight like 7, 730, despite the icky white stuff. Even though by then it had turned to rain
But I woke up today to beautiful snow.
But surprisingly there were a lot of people out.
And i also got the chickens all situated today. Went out this afternoon to check their water (probably should have checked earlier), it had slush in it but wasn't frozen. So I dumped it and refilled it with warm water I had brought out. Then I noticed the food was empty or one was so I refilled those. Then there was poop in a nest box (i think one sleeps in there) box so that prompted me to scrape the whole roof off and go dump it on the compost pile. Then once I did that, I couldn't just leave the coop as is (shavings haven't been changed in forever) but I drew the line at completely emptying it in the snow so I just got a bag and emptied it in the coop and nest boxes and also underneath the coop cause that's where they were hanging out and it was all muddy. Then I gave them a ton of BOSS and some old granola. They loved that.
Normally I would impulsively clean the entire coop rain or shine or in the snow and have before but I was tired.
But I went out there only to do water and i may out off actually checking but once i do i cant do it half butt lol
Anyway. So THAT is why yesterday was long. I not only did a lot but also was up way longer than usual cause i normally get up late
And my face is starting to hurt cause I'm late on my pill so gotta take it
I really wanted a daughter but it was not to be. I do wonder who i lost.
Today is so pretty outside!
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Aw sorry. And pretty!
Always love that first snow we have none here yet. Woke before 8 Richard outside calling to Freckles. We lost an indoor cat yesterday realized the smaller male Freckles was not in Richards room, We went throughout the house all around the house no sign of him the guys went to the dump as they where loading I think he got out
Awww I hope you find him!!
so sorry!
I feel ya on the Internet. our old hotspot has been glitching for the last few weeks, keeps getting worse. .. I get in the middle of something then get kicked off...annoying.
I should get a new one next week.
I hope your Internet is straightened out soon.
right now I AM USING DATA!!!!!!
I've had to use data lately too! Internet will just go out! Might be my phone though?
Hey Al, how are you today? Are the boys shoveling snow?
I have a miracle to report! The guy showed up with 2 truck loads of topsoil today!
Nice!
Yolo county here is one of the meth capitals and they do this with a Soda bottle. They are messy if they blow up. Burns the person
Wow thats scary!
Well that was interesting reading. drugs and breast milk
and sad too CF
and encouraging too penny
I'm all for the family talk, right now my sister and two close friends are pregnant, I think I mentioned one is with twins. I'm going to have so many newborns in my life soon. Just not my own...though we have discussed it. I think we're going to wait until the spring.
Spent the day inside today despite it being a good day to work outside. But I put together my resume for a part-time job. I hate writing resumes. Had my share of coffee, so I'll put on the evening tea if anyone wants.
Lol sorry!
Aw good luck!
And ugh i hate resumes. I havent done anything to put on it.
I'll have some with you. My friend and only neighbor moved out today. Feeling kinda lonesome down at the end of a long private drive
Awww sorry!!
I have the tea pot on! And fresh doughnuts!
Once i have my tea i am planning to go out to the workshop and cut a board for another sign for Smuvers Farm. And i can check to see if that paint is drying. I kind of doubt it.
I started putting ornaments on the tree today. The cats seem to think it is their private toy! I put a plastic ornament down on a lower branch and they made off with it! And Crazy Cat did not want to come down out of the branches!
Oooohhhh donuts!!!
I am so full though.
Good friend gone, 
