Yes. unfortunately we were carb loaded kids with lots of pasta and little protein. Diabetes runs heavily on both sides of my family. And I do understand the impact made by the things I put in my body. It's true the only time my blood sugar has been controlled well was on a super low carb diet. However, I felt like crap all the time worse than when I have a high blood sugar... which the things I do to give it to myself were taught tools to block emotions... to get that endorphine rush that comes or whatever it is that makes sugar MORE addictive than cocaine and some how feel like everything is right with the world for JUST a moment. I am not normal and some chickens won't be either. THING is my brothers eat the same things and got NO issue. I didn't mean to make this about myself or diabetics... but a flock of birds all managed with the same practice may see some get fat while other stay thin or just right. I'm not making excuses for myself. I have come a LONG way and learned new tools for coping. I have also learned to be comfortable with who I am and knowing that while I don't meet our cultures' expectation of supermodel thin... I have some meat on my bones and when crud hits the fan... I won't be the first one wasting away. I have gotten even fatter before to the point of being uncomfortable, when I am going through binges. But when life normalizes and I calm down things always go back to "normal" for me. I am active and will put myself up against any pole bean for distance though not speed. When younger we ate all kinds of boxed foods that rarely enter my kitchen anymore... not due to nutrient but due to flavor. Our taste buds have matured. And many people don't realize things like milk have carbs in them... used to drink milk like water, now 1/2 cup a day at most... and not non fat or low fat anymore... just enough to swallow the pills I hate so much. Raising chickens has been a HUGE wake up call for animal product consumption. My real intent by mentioning it was just something that makes an easy connection for easier understanding of how certain things work.... WERE my body in working order... carbs would not be the enemy... even IF it is true that we don't technically need them. No real embarrassment or defensiveness going on here if it happens to come off that way. Just open conversation. Interestingly.. when I was younger I would eat 2 whole sandwiches. Now I eat an open faced sandwich with only 1 bread slice if really hungry usually... with chips (pretty sure they are from the devil) on the side.... consumption is often hormone driven I have realized... because now that life stay pretty status quo I still go through phases of craving can't stop thinking about eating something periods... thankfully short lived so that I have maintained my weight without ever dieting again for about the past 7 years. Sorry so long, detailed, and personal! I figure we all face some sort of challenge, so I don't care to much about being judged for my lessons from life.One question if I may, does your diet includes ANY tipe of grains whole grains or not (pasta, bred rice etc etc ) or potato?

So when I'm not mental (sorry if using the term offends anyone who struggles worse than me in that department)... my body will actual only take in a specified number of calories to maintain my weight...
BUT... if I pig out on carbs, I wake up starving and want more and it's repeating cycle. For ME, balance is key.
