Thanks to all for their thoughts. A little background.
Beth was first diagnosed with breast Cancer 10 years ago, when she was 39. Biopsies, ultrasounds, and ,many other tests over a 1 month period confirmed it and she had a right mastectomy, followed by 6 months of aggressive chemotherapy and also radiation. Back then, they noticed a lesions (sp) on her left femur, but the biopsy on that came back negative. Things looked good for a few years, until late 2005. We were in the process of moving to Colorado from SW Washington, and she was experiencing pain in her left hip. She and the doctors thought it was arthritis. It got so bad that she could hardly walk. After the move, we pursued it further, and soon were back at an oncologist who did another biopsy on her leg, along with CT and PET scans, (BTW, PET scans are VERY expensive) Come to find out that her upper left femur and hip joint were fully involved with breast cancer tumors. The upper left femur and hip joint were replaced just before Christmas, 2006. After recovery from that she started mild chemo again. Several different types of chemo hadn't halted the tumor growth in her bones. that is when we switched to a doctor from Rocky Mountain Cancer center. he played around with several more treatment types and found one that kept the bone tumors from growing, and caused shrinkage in the ones in her lungs. The problem was that the bone tumor medication had a nasty side effect..... ONJ. Osteo Necrosis of the Jaw: Basically jaw bone death. He upper right mandible is slowly going away, which causes intense pain and discomfort. So she now deals with that as well, and the side effects of the narcotic pain medication. She went on a 6 month hiatus from Chemo in order to get a handle on the other side effects. The tumors in her bones haven't increased ( two or three vertebrae spots, upper right shoulder and arm bones, right knee two spots), but the lung tumors have grown and she has fluid buildup around the lungs as well. We hope that the chemo will again do its thing. with the exception of the last 6 months, she has been on chemo of one sort or another for the last 6 years.
We rely on our faith and Gods strength to help us through each day. its all a day to day thing. Beth looks forward to each birthday and holiday. Each one reached is a small victory. Beth rarely complains, especially in public. She says she has an advantage over everyone else...We all are in suspense, but she knows what will eventually kill her. She doesn't like a lot of attention regarding the cancer. And yes, Cancer SUCKS! She appreciates sincere thoughts and all prayers, no matter what ones religious beliefs. One of her pet peeves is when she looks and feels like crap, and it shows, and someone comes up to her and asks how she feels. Really she says? Do you not have eyes? how does it look like i feel?!
So now we start it again. RMCC wants more money, insurance doesn't cover all. Chicken projects will have to slow down again. Hopefully the cars all continue to run.
So there's the background. We must maintain the "stiff upper lip" of our English heritage, and the dogged stubborness of our Scottish heritage, and the "can do , never say die" attitude of the rural americans that we are!
The chickens have a great calming effect for Beth and myself, and we are greatfull that we have been blessed with them, our two attentive dogs, great kids and family and lots of wonderful friends. We know that blessings come, we also know that some blessings come in this life, some in the next. Not all blessings are what we think we need, but what God wants for us.