Please forgive me for this stupid post but I am terribly sad this morning. I am watching a beautiful red tail hawk right now out my window... it is a long story and some parts quite honestly don't make sense... I just can't figure out what is upsetting me so much that tears are streaming down my face. I moved here 7 years ago... lovely cul de sac with protected common wetland bordering my property... I'm near the lilinonah dam project and we have lots of wildlife including bear and bald eagles. We had a beautiful pair of barred owls that everyone on the street enjoyed especially late summer when the juveniles would start sitting along the road out in the open and learn to call... quite a site... totally adorable. then a neighbor bought the house next to me.. clear cut every tree on his property including many over his property line right into the protected wetlands.... the rest of us, my self and two other households looked on in horror... the owls left, red tails moved in... life settled after a period of sad acceptance... a couple weeks ago the red tails started to get active with spring in the air and were flying about and calling to each other constantly... I lost two chickens and have been making all sorts of adjustments to protect my beautiful flock from this newest onslaught... then last weekend my neighbor told my husband he had shot one because they were a threat to his pigeons.... the breeding behavior has stopped, all is quiet now and I can see the remaining hawk sitting on a perch quietly watching the neighbors yard for a mouse to move. I probably should be grateful he eliminated the threat to my chickens but in truth I find myself terribly sad over the whole affair... the silence reminds me of when the barred owls left... I consider red tails more of a junk bird as they are so common and I really should not be upset but the sight of this now mateless bird is just tearing me apart. I know what my neighbor has done is illegal and I could report him as I could have when he cleared the wetlands... its not my style to report on neighbors... whats done is done and its not worth the animosity. I wish I could explain what is upsetting me so much about all this but I can't... so thank you for indulging me with a place to share this not completely chicken related post... I should be happy as the threat to my birds is now gone, but I am not. It all just seems sadly quiet. I was looking forward to watching the hawks raise out there young... even contemplating perhaps feeding them an alternative to chicken...