@KDOGG331 said: was my first hatch ever too so even more significant
plus the fact that I’ve never killed anything in my life so I am really having quite a hard time with it as ridiculous as that sounds.
Oh no, girl, nothing ridiculous about that at all. I would worry about you if you could take this lightly. I don't think very many of us find it easy under any circumstances. I haven't had to do it often, and the only thing that has gotten me through it is knowing it is the "last, best gift" I can give to an animal that is suffering and trusting me to do what is best for it. And always with tears! It is so hard for me that the ones that go for meat, I can't even do myself, I hire it done to make sure it gets done right. No, you are not ridiculous. Nobody thinks that. But once you take on an animal, you become responsible for its life. All the way. It's hard, but that's the deal.