Eroica
Defective
This is bad writing, whipped up in a matter of 10 minutes and based on a real-life experience of something that happened to my friend."If you thought you were going to die, how would you escape?"
One of these days, I don’t think I’m going to die. I know I’m going to die.
It’s one of those things about life that is certain, like taxes, and every choice I make seems to lead closer to the end of life. I remember the day when everything changed, and all the days that came before then, when A----- would kiss me good-bye in the mornings before I left. She’d always preface her statement with something like “Be safe, S----. Don’t get yourself killed.”
And what do I do? I charge ahead blindly, not caring about anything but the work I’m doing. Building skyscrapers in the city, towering monuments in the downtown of L-----. So focused in my work, I don’t bother using safety equipment.
I guess I should’ve been more careful, now that I think of it. At least I gave my kids an inheritance early.
My ankle and foot are shattered now. I’m bedridden. Can’t even fulfill obligations anymore—to my family, to my wife, to my friends. I was planning to leave this room, but the pain—oh, the pain. A----- keeps telling me it could’ve always been worse. She’s right. I could’ve died.
Oh, what a blessing that would be. But it doesn’t come yet.
Maybe God is telling me to be less reckless. Maybe it’s his way of telling me that I should care more about my family instead of my work. What did I give all those years of broken bones and surgeries for? Deep down, I know it was for them.
Maybe that, that is how I escape death, at least something premature. Stop treating myself like a mule, and look up—at the family who loves me, at the wife who will always be with me, no matter what. Now, I’ve made my decision. Once my ankle and my foot heal, I’m going to retire—for good this time.
And the first thing I'll do after that is give my family the love and attention they deserve.
It’s one of those things about life that is certain, like taxes, and every choice I make seems to lead closer to the end of life. I remember the day when everything changed, and all the days that came before then, when A----- would kiss me good-bye in the mornings before I left. She’d always preface her statement with something like “Be safe, S----. Don’t get yourself killed.”
And what do I do? I charge ahead blindly, not caring about anything but the work I’m doing. Building skyscrapers in the city, towering monuments in the downtown of L-----. So focused in my work, I don’t bother using safety equipment.
I guess I should’ve been more careful, now that I think of it. At least I gave my kids an inheritance early.
My ankle and foot are shattered now. I’m bedridden. Can’t even fulfill obligations anymore—to my family, to my wife, to my friends. I was planning to leave this room, but the pain—oh, the pain. A----- keeps telling me it could’ve always been worse. She’s right. I could’ve died.
Oh, what a blessing that would be. But it doesn’t come yet.
Maybe God is telling me to be less reckless. Maybe it’s his way of telling me that I should care more about my family instead of my work. What did I give all those years of broken bones and surgeries for? Deep down, I know it was for them.
Maybe that, that is how I escape death, at least something premature. Stop treating myself like a mule, and look up—at the family who loves me, at the wife who will always be with me, no matter what. Now, I’ve made my decision. Once my ankle and my foot heal, I’m going to retire—for good this time.
And the first thing I'll do after that is give my family the love and attention they deserve.