Had to wait like almost 2 hours in court today (Friday) before my turn BUT!!!!!!! The judge extended the order for a year which is great and amazing but…
I also found the other night (Wednesday) that my friend had passed which is so NOT great and amazing…
And I just…
IDK.
Honestly, this all just feels like a bad dream. A nightmare. That I will wake up from soon.
Except…
It’s reality. It’s my life.
And I keep wanting to text her but I can’t because she’s not here anymore…
I have so much I need to tell her and I can’t.

I still feel like I’m in a dream. A bad one. And I keep hoping I will wake up soon.
My body also just tried to cry a bit ago and I was like heck no, I can’t cry, and put that to a halt immediately LOL
It’s still trying to cry… we’re not crying. We’re not doing this. NO.
And sorry, I know I’ve said some of this already, but it just all made more sense together rather than isolated.
But yeah… we’re not crying. Not happening.