I understand that.I cannot handle reconstructing my shattered heart again.
Have a good cry, bury your dead, clean up the mess. Let your life get back to normal.
Its raw right now. Im so sorry. Chickens worm their way right into our hearts and its gut wrenchig when we loose any pet.
At some point in the future you might go from sad to mad.
Then i go from mad to stuborn determination to try again differently, better, succesfully.
I know thats my cycle.
What we live through makes us stronger!
Sending you warm thoughts and prayers for you and your partner.
Esther
Your anger is understandable. It's heartbreaking. You have no control over what has passed but how you react to the anger is where you have some control. Please consider wisely.