So many times I have questioned myself. my mind wants to do young people stuff. Im not old. But my body is broke down and wont allow it. I struggled for a long time with the what ifs. Sometimes I still do. Then I got tired of struggling and decided the stress of it aint worth it. So I will do what I can. I still push myself , always will but Im not going to beat myself up if it dont work out.
That has been a struggle I've had. I'm learning to find joy in what I have done.