Just so you all know what has been going on... I haven't been sleeping at night... I don't know what's going on. I feel like I'm in a fog all day long and I stare at the clock and worry about missing picking up kids or screwing up when I help the boys with their homework... I start freaking out at the time my dad is suppose to come home... Not sure why cause it's been going good. We have been learning to live with each other.. I watch shows and can't concentrate.. And spend more time looking at my clock. I some how got myself in a stupid rut of sorts and I need to get myself out of it. I think I should come here and read and I can't focus for but two minutes... Meds??? Or something.... I don't know but it's exhausting... Every minute of the day is recorded. I just need relief... And just live. I can't explain this..... It's been really hard.