Sorry for your loss. Take heart in that you had the courage to care for your friend even when it meant crushing your own heart to do so. That is a quality of a true caregiver. Time heals all things but nothing rushes time. Remember the love and happiness he brought to your home while he could . It is all they have to offer and they give it all freely. You suffer now because you had the fortune of being blessed, It would seem contradictory but in truth is not. Blessing seldom comes at no cost, it requires that we accept risk. That we will suffer loss. Your little one is now at peace, no longer sick or in pain or discomfort. In it's place you are left to carry that burden for a time. Carry it well and be strong for you have a heart that knows how to truly love, and the courage to do so. It is now my hope that the peace that Panzer knows will find root in your heart as well. That it will take hold and fill you with the memories of him that are worth keeping.