Hi Everyone,
I hope that this is the right forum for this post, if not admin I apologize.
We had the first had loss of our favorite hens last night.
She was plagued with egg yolk peritonitis in addition to being an old girl
of 9 years.
I tried to treat her with antibiotics and other care for several weeks. It was clear that
she was not going to recover and that she was just suffering while I was trying to help her.
After realizing this I looked for end of life solutions. I tried to see if a vet would put her down but
they said they do not see "Farm" animals despite already being a client in vet care for
my cat. Other vets would not see me unless I was already a client. So that came to a dead in
quick.
I was then faced with doing to task myself. After researching methods to despatch a sick hen
and reading other people's reports I decided that the most fail safe method was the hatched to
the neck in the form of a quick and clean deception. I ached knowing that I was going to have to
do this to my favorite hen but other methods were just not as clear to me and I felt that this
was the safest route ending in a quick parting for my beloved girl. She was the first hen that I have had to cull, other that were sick either died quickly after taking ill for I would just find them dead in the coop as they aged passed the 7 to 8 year mark.
Well as fate would have it, I was ready to cull her and as I heaved the hatched down
to her neck I missed!! I was horrified, I could not believe that I missed! I stuck her but
not with a fatal blow I wanted to achieve. So as I regained my
strength fighting back tears I swung again and this time completed the most difficult tasks of my life thus far. She flopped and did the stuff that I was warned would happen.
What bothers me is this. After careful planning a research in order to send my beloved girl
to the beyond in a quick and hopefully fleeting painless method I screwed up. I wanted
nothing more that to give her the last gift of love with a gentle passing.
It haunts me to think that pain she was in when I missed. It terrifies me that think that the girl
who loved me so much was probably wondering why I caused her so much pain. I cannot sleep,
eat or anything, I am just haunted at the turmoil and suffering I caused her all in the efforts to end
her suffering.
For anyone who has been down this road please tell me how you recover. I am not sure what
to do. I am stuck in a hell that I created all because I was trying to do my beloved feathered friend the best favor that I could.
Please no negative comments, I am already traumatized beyond what I can handle. I am need some help in guidance in how to begin to heal for such a sorrowful tragedy.
thank you in advance.
I hope that this is the right forum for this post, if not admin I apologize.
We had the first had loss of our favorite hens last night.
She was plagued with egg yolk peritonitis in addition to being an old girl
of 9 years.
I tried to treat her with antibiotics and other care for several weeks. It was clear that
she was not going to recover and that she was just suffering while I was trying to help her.
After realizing this I looked for end of life solutions. I tried to see if a vet would put her down but
they said they do not see "Farm" animals despite already being a client in vet care for
my cat. Other vets would not see me unless I was already a client. So that came to a dead in
quick.
I was then faced with doing to task myself. After researching methods to despatch a sick hen
and reading other people's reports I decided that the most fail safe method was the hatched to
the neck in the form of a quick and clean deception. I ached knowing that I was going to have to
do this to my favorite hen but other methods were just not as clear to me and I felt that this
was the safest route ending in a quick parting for my beloved girl. She was the first hen that I have had to cull, other that were sick either died quickly after taking ill for I would just find them dead in the coop as they aged passed the 7 to 8 year mark.
Well as fate would have it, I was ready to cull her and as I heaved the hatched down
to her neck I missed!! I was horrified, I could not believe that I missed! I stuck her but
not with a fatal blow I wanted to achieve. So as I regained my
strength fighting back tears I swung again and this time completed the most difficult tasks of my life thus far. She flopped and did the stuff that I was warned would happen.
What bothers me is this. After careful planning a research in order to send my beloved girl
to the beyond in a quick and hopefully fleeting painless method I screwed up. I wanted
nothing more that to give her the last gift of love with a gentle passing.
It haunts me to think that pain she was in when I missed. It terrifies me that think that the girl
who loved me so much was probably wondering why I caused her so much pain. I cannot sleep,
eat or anything, I am just haunted at the turmoil and suffering I caused her all in the efforts to end
her suffering.
For anyone who has been down this road please tell me how you recover. I am not sure what
to do. I am stuck in a hell that I created all because I was trying to do my beloved feathered friend the best favor that I could.
Please no negative comments, I am already traumatized beyond what I can handle. I am need some help in guidance in how to begin to heal for such a sorrowful tragedy.
thank you in advance.