Help I need advice on how to grieve because my duckling died

[Flow]

Ok so it’s a wild story and I made this account just for yknow doing this. Ok so this is where it all started, ok so was my grandparents house and keep in mind they live by a duck pond and they said to me hey Ruby we found a duck egg. And obviously being me I said I wanted to see it not touch it just see it. And it was just there all alone no other eggs no mother, so I decided to touch it and what do you know it is cold to the touch and said we needed to incubate it (my grandparents said they haven’t seen the mother all day) So we brought it home bought an incubator and i candled it every few days and I was getting hyped up like I’m gonna have a duck. 28 long days later it pipped but it was at the wrong end and I got worried but a few days later it barely made any progress but I wanted to wait just in case, and I successfully chipped away and peeled back that leather stuff watching to make sure the wasn’t and blood and it hatched the rest on its own. I left it in the incubator to dry off and rest a little then put him in my brooder I took him out every so often to snuggle and he would calmly go to sleep in my arms, it hatched 2 days ago and when it did I started not feeling well. And I ended up getting sick with a cold (I’m still sick) and everything was going well and she was walking and running to me and it was the sweetest thing and would jump up on my shoulder and bury her head into my hair he was also eating well. And I would put him in the brooder at night and put on music and the clear bin on my bed. Last night tho I was really not feeling well and she was chirping extra loud so I took her out and was gonna go back to sleep once I calmed her but I fell asleep and I wake up this morning she had gone limp and i new she was gone and I knew it was all my fault. Are there any suggestions for grieving and how to stop blaming myself for what happened

 

[N F C]

Sorry for your loss, we all experience the loss of an animal at some point. Maybe this article will help you: coping-with-death-in-your-flock-4-actionable-steps.75162

 

[sourland]

Sorry for your loss. Great link provided by @N F C

 

[rjohns39]

Hi Ruby and welcome to BYC We're so happy you've decided to join us

So sorry for your loss

 

[GermanKennhuhn]

I so sorry! Don’t blame yourself! Not all of them make it.

 

[DobieLover]

Hello and welcome to BYC! Glad you joined.
I'm very sorry for your loss.

 

[GermanKennhuhn]

Welcome to BYC by the way!

 

[janiedoe]

I am so sorry for your loss. You're part of a wonderful community now, and we are here to help you through this.

 

[Zoologist]

Aw, I’m very sorry for your loss. It’s hard letting go of animals we care so much about, but don’t blame yourself mistakes happen and it’s all just apart of nature we all greave differently what helps me is to paint a grave stone

 

[Zoologist]

I know it sounds odd, but maybe you should get another pet? I lost a hen a little while ago one of which a loved very dearly and the next day I went out and got more baby chicks. I think it honors the animal that passed on by giving others a chance just my opinion, I hope you feel better soon